Let-he Go

As she was riding the bus on the way to

 the old school of life, they stopped at the library and 

picked up Mr. Mini Beers. 

She waved hello to him and he smiled, but then he sat 

down in the seat in front of her and didn't 

look back. 

He had his hoodie on top of his head and he wasn't 

drinking any beers as per usual. 

She took a moment to assess all that had occurred  between 

her and Mr. Mini beers since the first 

time they met. 

She remembered Holy Spirit warn her about him

especially since he had the Spade tattoo next to his 

right eye. 

It was a reflection for her. 

She needed to respect her Venus energy more 

or else in reflection, there would be an end waiting for her. 

So she respected the flow of their final meeting. 

A smile and silence was definitely her cue. 

She respected him though. 

Even though he only wanted sex from her, 

like all the other men she was attracting,

at least he was straight forward, no games. 

No Lies,

No Tricks,

No Manipulations.

He showed her what he was after and when 

she rejected the proposal, 

he left her alone. 

No pretending to be friends just to try to get what he 

was after in order to feel dominant.

He had self respect. 

He knew he could get muff any time any where. 

And when she rejected him, 

he respected her no just as she respected his 

silence and break from the friendship.

She didn't judge him for wanting only muff. 

If that was his pleasure and desire in life, 

so be it. 

But it was not her only desire in life. 

And so they both agreed in silence to go their 

separate ways. 

Meanwhile, once she arrived at the old school of life,

she began to see clearly everything that she 

never wanted to see before. 

She saw that the workers at the old school were 

not really workers. 

They were the energy she grew up with. 

Asking if she could have something, only to have to wait 

till they wanted to give it to her. 

Yet she realized, 

what she wanted was her own stuff. 

Her suitcase with her clothes and toiletries. 

How was it that she had to beg and wait for her 

own well being? 

When did she even put it in their hands? 

And that's when it hit her. 

The unconscious cycle. 

Believing that this school of life held the key 

to her well being. 

It didn't. 

It was the fear that she didn't want to acknowledge

and process that was ruling over her this entire time!

No one was in charge of her well being except herself. 

Just because she grew up dependent didn't mean she 

had to stay it in order to believe it. 

A job depended on her in order to work. 

Not the other way around. 

This is where she kept confusing life and it's true flow. 

She always believed in order to have a job, she had to go to work. 

But no... 

The truth she finally saw was that in order for a job to work, 

it needed her approval and acceptance. 

However, the only way she was going to approve a job, 

was if it aligned with her true Venus Values and Joys.

The old school of life was not for her. 

That's why it was old. 

The old way. 

Which she finally realized 

was the wrong way.