Heating it Up!

It was only a few days after the Full Moon in Aries, 

when she realized her life had changed

almost over night. 

Was it a good change?

She wasn't quite sure yet, because as of so far,

nothing was really working the same way 

anymore.

However, something old had come back around. 

and she wanted to blame Venus in Scorpio for it. 

It was a 'sort of'' ex. 

'Sort of' because they never actually went out. 

They just hung out for short bursts of time here and there. 

So more like dating... If even that. 

The last time they were ever together was 

back during the Pisces Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in

September of 2025.

Then he disappeared on her. 

They had been texting back and forth one day,

then all of a sudden, 

no text back. 

She wondered, 

"Did he just Ghost me!?"

 

but then she found out that he had actually

 been arrested.

Fast forward to September 2026. 

She ran into Mr. Mini Beers at the mall bus station

and he was completely transformed!

She could hardly recognize him!

If it wasn't for his tattoos, which she clearly 

remembered, she would be a little worried at this 

hot guy coming to her!

When he saw her, 

he came up to her with such joy in his eyes. 

yet he was a bit shaken. 

Just like that day when she told him what she wanted

straight up and ran her fingers through his curly hair. 

"Think about me."

were her last words to him 

that she whispered in his ear.

Now, here he was...

fresh out of a year's vacation in jail and fate brings 

her back to him.

She kept saying, "wow! you look good! Really Good!"

Jail really did that body good she secretly 

thought to herself. 

But then she had to go. 

Her bus was coming. 

He asked about getting food but she wasn't even clicking. 

She just told him it was downstairs,

yet she never put two and two together.

His way of asking her out was different then what she 

 had learned was the 

"right way". 

And so she 'blew him off' without even knowing it. 

But when she was on the bus, she felt it. 

The disappointment.

But little did she know,

disappointment was the shadow

that kept her blind to reality. 

Why was she expecting flow to be a certain way?

There was only one way to flow. 

What she had learned to be flow, was actually 

a controlled fearful tactic 

that made her believe she was safe, 

but never actually got her anywhere. 

She stayed stuck. 

It was the way she moved....

And that's what kept her

 Isolated. 

Alone.

Single.

Her fear was being

 Unwanted.

Unlikable.

Worthless.

Yet this Disappointment shadow was hard at work

making her believe that she was to control 

how things showed up,

Rather then going from inside out.

The next time she ran into Mr. Mini Beers

was once again at the mall bus station. 

This time she followed her inner feelings when 

she saw him and gave him a huge hug!

He hugged her back. 

They lingered. 

Then she got on the bus and sat down. 

He came on the bus after her and asked her where she 

was going?

She didn't want to give away her exact location

so she told him only the city name. 

He asked, "May I come with you?" 

Her mind spun out!

All she could think of was her small tent

shake, rattle, and rolling with the two 

of them in there together. 

So she kindly declined. 

He wasn't phased. but he took her rejection 

the same way he did last time, with respect. 

As he was about to walk away, 

she said real quick,

 "Wait!"

He turned back around and she took off her 

friendship bracelet which she had just made. 

And she put it on his hand. 

He smiled at her and said thanks.

Then he got off the bus. 

Just as the driver came back and started the bus, 

Mr. Mini Beers grabbed his bag and hopped back on the bus. 

He came over to her and sat down.

They hugged again. 

He asked her if she made the bracelet. 

And she told him that she did. 

He took it to heart. 

Or so she hoped. 

During the bus ride though, 

again, Mr. Mini Beers began groping her exactly 

like he did their first date. 

She kept fighting off his advances but this time, 

she was actually enjoying his touch. 

So she calmed him down and told him,

"No, now is not the time or place." 

However, she made sure to speak with temptation 

and added a little seduction magic of her own.

 As she spoke her words, 

she rubbed her hands all along his chest, up to his neck, 

where she noticed

he was wearing his rosary necklace. 

He was very Catholic. 

Had a tattoo on his neck of prayer hands. 

Yet... 

She wondered... 

Why would a Catholic School Boy 

be interested in an Intuitive Spiritual? 

To Be Continued... 

Hopefully...

 

Brewing Below...

The Aries Full Moon was bringing up, 

through a boil over energy,

all the areas of her self connection

that were completely off. 

She had just uncovered the

 disappointment shadow with Holy Spirit,

however, the disappointment in herself 

was the next to be seen. 

She felt nauseated and couldn't quite understand why?

She was about to do what she loved and 

for some reason felt as though

all her energy was drained, 

leaving her nauseated. 

She thought about the last time she felt 

nauseated and how the drain came

from trying to manage it. 

So she  didn't manage it this time. 

She let it speak.

 

Her Venus told her that she had been draining

all her energy with external people 

whom she didn't even respect. 

And she kept humiliating them all with her high

pride. 

She was a user,

 a thief, 

and worst of all,

a narcissist!  

No wonder after last night,

all she could feel now is a complete

and utter disappointment in herself.

She wanted to point the finger

 and say, 

"See! these people are so lost and need fixing."

But these people were really her reflection.

Each one having their own personal issue. 

Gemini and Virgo had no communication

and constantly hurt each other 

in the name of love.

Aries was indifferent to himself and his pains,

but always had everyone else's back.

Scorpio was abandoned and feared 

not being good enough, 

so he became an over giver yet stays isolated. 

Cancer was tough, but only because he 

was a turtle. The hard shell protected him, 

but inside he was all soft and squishy.

And so Cancer was always coming and going,

but never where he really wanted to be because 

no one was accepting him, cuz he couldn't even 

accept himself.

And last night, 

Pisces came back. 

 Pisces, from the old school of life,

reflected to her once again

where she had disgust in herself.

Where she wanted to love and be loved

but didn't even know how to love herself.

With all this boiling over, 

she took a second look over all her friends

and admitted to herself finally

that she was the one in need of finding and fixing.

She was the one who had changed herself 

a long long time ago.

Letting go of her true 

values, visions, wishes, and desires.

If she really wanted things to change, 

it was up to her to speak her truth 

with love. 

Not run, chase, fight, or teach. 

So for this Full Moon in Aries coming up, 

she decided to turn in her sword.

And step down off the pedestal. 

She let free her high horse!

Retro Grade School

The Libra Equinox rode in on the waves of a storm, 

but honestly,

 to her,

 it was more like some cooler wetter weather

set out to do something even better. 

 Hopefully...

As she was sitting outside with her so called friends,

a new acquaintance showed up. 

He quietly sat down across from them and Gemini

began talking to him almost instantly as if they had known 

each other for ages. 

Gemini then began using his matchmaker skills,

and tried to hook her up with this new acquaintance. 

She thought to herself silently, 

"umm... okay no... 

why would you do that?" 

Especially since she was slightly secretly crushing on Gemini already.

However, Gemini kept trying to push the two together

and so she took the bait and said to herself, 

"sure, 

why not get what I can while it's hot?"

So she gave the new acquaintance her number 

and began to strike up a 'getting to know you' survey.

The fact that this new acquaintance began with 

LYING,

 as his first response, 

she immediately dropped the whole idea 

like a rotten apple with worms crawling out of it!

After that, no matter what else she asked him, 

she took his answers with a disbelief attached to it. 

When he mentioned to Aries how he couldn't 

believe that she was not believing in him, 

she laughed and thought to herself, 

"Well duh!"

As the day rolled on,

 Gemini was getting antsy and wanted 

them to go join him in another city to play soccer.

She took a look at the new acquaintance and felt 

an eerie feeling... 

"No way!" screamed Holy Spirit!

"Thou shalt not!"

And so she didn't. 

Gemini ended up leaving and as she went to go get a 

second beer,

 which the new acquaintance was peer pressured

into buying, 

obviously,

 in order to try to pull his

only reason for even stopping by. 

He kept asking her, 

"when can we have sex."

She reinforced him many times over that she was 

not a hooker or prostitute, yet this guy 

kept asking when?

When?

WHEN!?

She told him, 

there was no set date, until they would go on 

a date and get to know each other to 

see if they even matched. 

In the end, 

He never set a date,

 but he told her he would text. 

Which, when it came to the next day, 

this guy only sent her a weird text which basically boiled 

down to a "hello" after she decoded all the spelling errors.

 

She responded with a hello back, but never heard 

from him again. 

However, 

a couple of days later, she was back at the usual

hot spot and Aries mentions to her that the new 

acquaintance came and looked for her the 

very next day. 

For her,

 this was way too much drama. 

Although, 

there was something that came up in the ether realm

for her... 

This new acquaintance was from Guatemala but he was 

very white skinned. 

Then he also lied about his birthday and said 

he was born February 30th. 

He kept trying to wink at her many times,

 but his eyes reminded 

her too much of her Plutonic Ex. 

Drama Drama Drama. 

And that was something she did NOT want to replay

ever again!

With The Libra Equinox, all about relating first 

to herself, then speaking her truth to others, 

she really wanted to finally get it right. 

Venus was coming in Strong next month

when she would go RX

in Scorpio. 

And the last thing she wanted was a repeat of 

the old family relating issues that kept her STUCK

all her life!