A Lil' Frosting

Mother Nature had dropped a huge load

on her part of the world. 

It was during winter and of course she was excited 

to see some snow fall finally. 

However, the day of the snowstorm, 

not only did 

Neptune pile high almost 10 inches of snow,

but he had also reflected to her the truth 

of all that she had kept buried deep within.

This beautiful snow blanketing the town 

was actually 

one of deceit and illusion!

What appeared to be fresh fallen snow, 

was actually hard as a rock 

and freaking cold as ice!

There was no walking on it or sledding on it. 

No building a snowman

or throwing snowballs. 

It was a trick!

In the end,

 it was all just blocking life from moving forward,

just as her own internal emotions were

blocking her external life from moving on.

So, 

with Mercury moving into Pisces, she knew it was 

very much a time to begin looking at her beliefs and then 

comparing the notes to her walk in life. 

What was off?

What needed tossing?

And where were decisions needing to be made?

Where was she self-sacrificing to some sort of false belief?

With Virgo being the Virgin Maiden, 

somewhere along the line of growing up, 

her third eye had to of made some sort of 

unhinged contracts and pledged plenty of 

off the wall oaths. 

Mercury in Pisces was going to reveal it all to her, 

and she was so ready for it too. 

It was time to get unstuck from the stuck-ness

which she kept sticking her head into. 

Glee Itching

No matter how hard she tried, 

she couldn't get this one 'thing' to leave 

her alone. 

Was it an illusion delusion?

Was she imagining it?

Because it seemed that at every turn 

of her energetics hitting joy, 

this thing would just appear out of 

nowhere!

Boom!

Just like that, 

tapping her on her shoulders from behind.

Or walking in stage left 

and just staring at her until she acknowledged 

it's presence. 

Could it be real?

 

Or

was she creating it into reality with her glitch?

Her Neptunian Jupiter glitch... 

Since Neptune had made his way into Aries, 

it was her time to really choose wisely 

at what she really truly believed in. 

Which she immediately knew was

Herself.

Her energies. 

Her truth!

However, 

this illusional glitch kept showing up for her

every single time she was feeling joy 

and about to take off. 

She was ready to move her energy into her next 

endeavors and boom, there it came!

Like a witch on a broom....

To suck away all the energy she had built up. 

This glitch was definitely exhausting her every last effort.

Thus,

Finally, 

with Neptune moved into Aries, 

(which was her Rising Sign)

she was able to catch the energy creepin' about.

It was time for her to choose herself. 

To really move herself forward rather than 

allow her Mercury mind to believe in the lie

that she was taught growing up. 

That the only way to be successful was to 

throw her energy into an external thing 

in order to get a reward. 

However, that mentality belief and action, 

many times over, had proven to her that it never

actually panned out to be true. 

Especially not when it was time to come back into 

her body and feel at home. 

Which she was ready to finally achieve in the

 physical sense as well.

So now the only question remained,

 that kept her in skepticism,

 was;

What exactly was she to do now?

 

Purr-Reflection

Like a Kitty Cat that caught fire,

so was the up coming Leo Full Moon energies

boiling underneath every humans skin!

She was feeling her own energies boiling over already

and there was still two more days to go. 

Her Ego was being tested in the physical world. 

Every situation she was stepping into 

kept meeting up with her Eris energy. 

Eris the goddess of discord

 was so close to the surface for her

 that she couldn't not join forces with her.

Every day was a massive battle. 

Between her and her. 

She just wanted to run and hide. 

It was her go to mechanism.

Not to mention the drown it out technique. 

That was one of her favorites. 

Escape it all with alcohol, music, and movies!

How fun to stay in La La Land. 

But then when everything crumbled in the real 

world, she couldn't enjoy La La Land anymore.

It would turn into Hell.

Or something close to it. 

Ugh... 

What was she to do?

Holy Spirit had been telling her to just face the fear. 

The fear of finally allowing herself to be happy

 in her feminine energy.

However, such an easy task

proved quite challenging for her to even grasp,

 because it would require 

her masculine energies' 

Cooperation. 

Compliance.

Co Creation.

However, 

there was Eris... 

She stood there along with 

Black Moon Lilith

 and

 Hekate...

And the three of them taunted her Masculine energy. 

Making her always want to be right.

Want to prove her strength.

Prove her Power...

But this is where the feminine would whisper to her, 

and it was so hard to hear it too,

because she would be so far out trying to battle

the external spirit energies. 

But Holy Spirit wouldn't stop until 

the message was heard... 

The feminine message that went as such;

"You can't have power by giving it away...

Come back in... 

Come be with me. 

Stop fighting.

Do not engage.

And 

Just Trust in me". 

Could she do it though?

Would she do it?

Definitely not alone, 

she wouldn't. 

But with Holy Spirit by her side, 

She surely could. 

The time was now. 

Ready or Not! 

. 

I See You

She was trapped inside a house with a thousand and one

external spirits... 

The snow storm outside blanketing them all inside

as if they all needed to rest... 

Just calm the f**k down and chill. 

Be at peace for once. 

But could they?

Could any of them really do that?

If she herself was taught to fight for the very 

thing called life, 

then surely all of these external spirits were taught the 

very same thing, were they not?

She had to contemplate that for a second before 

refocusing back on only herself. 

As she sat quietly at the table typing away at her blog, 

she realized that if indeed refocusing on herself was 

a selfish act, 

know otherwise as Narcissism... 

or worse,

Being Self centered.

Yet,

 focusing on doing deeds in order for others

to see and accept her was known as 

the key to success, 

then what exactly was happening under the blanket 

of snow that was trapping her and a thousand other 

spirits in one house?

Why were the people going stir crazy?

Why were arguments breaking out left and right?

Shouldn't they all be one big happy family?

Why were there walls up all over the place?

Why were people going off like bombs at each other? 

Why couldn't people sit still?

As if sitting was creating a lack of opportunities to 

seize recognition and proof of their worth!

As if enjoying their time together 

was some sort of wrong doing. 

How dare they!

Something was off. 

And she knew it.

 To be continued.... 

It All Ends Here

 A fresh new start was just on the Horizon...

But where was she?

For her, 

Capricorn stood vertically

 and if she wasn't aligned,

 then everything horizontal didn't work either.

But what exactly needed to be aligned?

She was beginning to realize that the more she 

was listening to external spirits,

the further she drifted away from anything 

actually working for her. 

The more she wanted to do what was right, 

the more wrong things began to pop up. 

Something was off. 

Way off. 

The Capricorn New Moon was going to be at 28 degrees.

The same 28 degrees that in her chart was connected to 

Lilith in Pisces 

and

Diana in Scorpio.

And of course, 

the main player in the whole game

was her Mars in Cancer 

believing that little lilith (o) in 

cancer but 5th house was the right way to go. 

This teeny tiny energy glitch was stirring up 

so much turmoil in her life these days, 

that she really needed some major help 

from Holy Spirit in order to straighten it out. 

But how exactly was it all going to rework itself?

That was the million dollar question for her. 

Today already, she had broken down into tears twice. 

And yesterday all day was just a waterfall and tsunami

type of day as well.

Most people would call it depression. 

Or Bipolar. 

But she knew very well that it was all the stuff she was 

cramming down and they wanted out.

So she let it. 

However, something needed fixing.

Something needed building.

Something had to be done.

Because in order for her to stop shoving feelings 

down and getting all clogged up... 

She needed to have a system in play. 

But how?

How was she to even know what was needed when 

she grew up using what she already had in place..

The depression suppression mechanism. 

She was hoping the New Moon in Capricorn would

 some how,

some way,

reveal to her a new technique. 

One that would allow her to finally flow. 

Cuz she was beyond stuck now. 

She was at the end of her rope.