Brewing Below...

The Aries Full Moon was bringing up, 

through a boil over energy,

all the areas of her self connection

that were completely off. 

She had just uncovered the

 disappointment shadow with Holy Spirit,

however, the disappointment in herself 

was the next to be seen. 

She felt nauseated and couldn't quite understand why?

She was about to do what she loved and 

for some reason felt as though

all her energy was drained, 

leaving her nauseated. 

She thought about the last time she felt 

nauseated and how the drain came

from trying to manage it. 

So she  didn't manage it this time. 

She let it speak.

 

Her Venus told her that she had been draining

all her energy with external people 

whom she didn't even respect. 

And she kept humiliating them all with her high

pride. 

She was a user,

 a thief, 

and worst of all,

a narcissist!  

No wonder after last night,

all she could feel now is a complete

and utter disappointment in herself.

She wanted to point the finger

 and say, 

"See! these people are so lost and need fixing."

But these people were really her reflection.

Each one having their own personal issue. 

Gemini and Virgo had no communication

and constantly hurt each other 

in the name of love.

Aries was indifferent to himself and his pains,

but always had everyone else's back.

Scorpio was abandoned and feared 

not being good enough, 

so he became an over giver yet stays isolated. 

Cancer was tough, but only because he 

was a turtle. The hard shell protected him, 

but inside he was all soft and squishy.

And so Cancer was always coming and going,

but never where he really wanted to be because 

no one was accepting him, cuz he couldn't even 

accept himself.

And last night, 

Pisces came back. 

 Pisces, from the old school of life,

reflected to her once again

where she had disgust in herself.

Where she wanted to love and be loved

but didn't even know how to love herself.

With all this boiling over, 

she took a second look over all her friends

and admitted to herself finally

that she was the one in need of finding and fixing.

She was the one who had changed herself 

a long long time ago.

Letting go of her true 

values, visions, wishes, and desires.

If she really wanted things to change, 

it was up to her to speak her truth 

with love. 

Not run, chase, fight, or teach. 

So for this Full Moon in Aries coming up, 

she decided to turn in her sword.

And step down off the pedestal. 

She let free her high horse!

Retro Grade School

The Libra Equinox rode in on the waves of a storm, 

but honestly,

 to her,

 it was more like some cooler wetter weather

set out to do something even better. 

 Hopefully...

As she was sitting outside with her so called friends,

a new acquaintance showed up. 

He quietly sat down across from them and Gemini

began talking to him almost instantly as if they had known 

each other for ages. 

Gemini then began using his matchmaker skills,

and tried to hook her up with this new acquaintance. 

She thought to herself silently, 

"umm... okay no... 

why would you do that?" 

Especially since she was slightly secretly crushing on Gemini already.

However, Gemini kept trying to push the two together

and so she took the bait and said to herself, 

"sure, 

why not get what I can while it's hot?"

So she gave the new acquaintance her number 

and began to strike up a 'getting to know you' survey.

The fact that this new acquaintance began with 

LYING,

 as his first response, 

she immediately dropped the whole idea 

like a rotten apple with worms crawling out of it!

After that, no matter what else she asked him, 

she took his answers with a disbelief attached to it. 

When he mentioned to Aries how he couldn't 

believe that she was not believing in him, 

she laughed and thought to herself, 

"Well duh!"

As the day rolled on,

 Gemini was getting antsy and wanted 

them to go join him in another city to play soccer.

She took a look at the new acquaintance and felt 

an eerie feeling... 

"No way!" screamed Holy Spirit!

"Thou shalt not!"

And so she didn't. 

Gemini ended up leaving and as she went to go get a 

second beer,

 which the new acquaintance was peer pressured

into buying, 

obviously,

 in order to try to pull his

only reason for even stopping by. 

He kept asking her, 

"when can we have sex."

She reinforced him many times over that she was 

not a hooker or prostitute, yet this guy 

kept asking when?

When?

WHEN!?

She told him, 

there was no set date, until they would go on 

a date and get to know each other to 

see if they even matched. 

In the end, 

He never set a date,

 but he told her he would text. 

Which, when it came to the next day, 

this guy only sent her a weird text which basically boiled 

down to a "hello" after she decoded all the spelling errors.

 

She responded with a hello back, but never heard 

from him again. 

However, 

a couple of days later, she was back at the usual

hot spot and Aries mentions to her that the new 

acquaintance came and looked for her the 

very next day. 

For her,

 this was way too much drama. 

Although, 

there was something that came up in the ether realm

for her... 

This new acquaintance was from Guatemala but he was 

very white skinned. 

Then he also lied about his birthday and said 

he was born February 30th. 

He kept trying to wink at her many times,

 but his eyes reminded 

her too much of her Plutonic Ex. 

Drama Drama Drama. 

And that was something she did NOT want to replay

ever again!

With The Libra Equinox, all about relating first 

to herself, then speaking her truth to others, 

she really wanted to finally get it right. 

Venus was coming in Strong next month

when she would go RX

in Scorpio. 

And the last thing she wanted was a repeat of 

the old family relating issues that kept her STUCK

all her life!

   

Starlight Star Bright

 She was sitting next to Aries, 

Diving head first into her Italian treat, 

Chef Boyardee Ravioli,

When Gemini and his love, Virgo came their way. 

They sat across from her and Aries and began 

a slow conversation. 

After she finished her dinner, she dared to mention 

to them that around 11pm would be

 the Virgo New Moon occurrence.

The Girlfriend, who was a Virgo,

 was sparked  immediately and asked, 

"What does a New Moon mean?"

As she went over to their side, she began explaining

to Virgo all about New Moons and Full Moons. 

When all of a sudden, the Gemini boyfriend 

got all excited and jumped up and pointed to the sky!

"A shooting star!" He exclaimed!

Then immediately sat down and closed his eyes.

Making a wish. 

When he was done, he began explaining to her all about

his ancient heritage and their beliefs 

around shooting stars. 

As she watched his excited face and smiling eyes, 

she began to get excited with him. 

Then all of a sudden she realized Virgo was still there 

in between...

A huge discomfort overcame her... 

She felt totally uncomfortable. 

But also totally confused.

 

Here she was all excited because Virgo and her

had something in common. 

But then also,

 her and Gemini shared a similar

excitement.. 

The Glitch though, was obvious. 

Gemini and Virgo came together. 

They were one, 

on the outside. 

She on the other hand had her own 

Gemini and Virgo inside her. 

And so she needed to put two and two together

in this scenario.

Gemini jumping up while seeing a shooting star, 

symbolized how her mind too, got excited around 

external spirit interaction. 

However, her Virgo body had wishes and desires

that needed to align with her true Vision and Values, 

which meant she needed to recognize where she 

was about to cheat herself. 

Celebrating in Gemini's joy was not her job. 

It was His girlfriend's job. 

She was cheating herself by believing that this 

external spirit

 was going to bring her any luck ever

no matter how hard she wished upon that star!

 

Luke Warm

She was up at the Old school of Life the other day

when one of the orderlies came around while he was cleaning.

She said her shy hello as per usual, 

only this time,

 he actually stopped an said something to her.

Her Eyes. 

It was a compliment about her eyes. 

This was nothing new to her. 

Back in her innocent days, 

people would always compliment her eyes. 

Saying things like, 

They were electric!

Hypnotizing!

Like an endless ocean that called to them.

She never really understood it. 

She would worry so much about her body. 

Her hair.

Her makeup. 

Yet,

 it was the eyes that always stole the show!

She knew she could see things. 

Many things. 

Things in the here and now, 

the in between and beyond,

the round and yonder, 

and even in the

upper realms and under...

She was special. 

But not in the way one always bends towards.

But so back to the orderly. 

She's been in the school of life since last year. 

She saw him then, but was too busy to care.

She only began to see him more when they threw 

her over to the wrong side of the road. 

She knew exactly why that was the case now,

 but back then she was still learning. 

One night, 

while she was getting her bed ready, a new girl

came and moved her cot right next to hers. 

She told the girl, no, you can't move the cots. 

But as it went down,

 they fought,

 then the orderlies came 

in and to her surprise,

took the new girls side. 

Including this very orderly who now claimed to 

love her eyes!

Flashbacks of her angry rose up in her. 

How dare he! 

Stand up for the new girl, then come  6 months later 

to tell her that he liked her eyes!

So she did what she always did, and she asked him

the dreaded question... 

"Where are you from?"

As a Pisces just like her,

 he responded with a similar

test. 

He told her to, "Guess."

She gave him an answer that was, what she delivered as,

 a bit disrespectful in taste.

He gave her a shocked look and disappointed

retaliation in response. 

Clearly, the spoonful of his own medicine 

really didn't taste as good going in as it did that day

when he had left her hanging for the new girl.

Talk about vengeance that never felt so good. 

She was gloating as he walked away. 

Then the next day, 

she was back at the school of life, 

and once again, 

he walked by her. 

She said her shy Hello again, only this time,

she got a cold stare. 

He looked at her as if he couldn't believe how 

those lovely blue eyes, 

could turn so icy sharp so quick. 

But little did he know, 

they were still connected to the warmest of waters,

just not to people who make her feel inferior,  insignificant, and then toss her aside.