Military Trail

The Solar Eclipse in Leo had dropped her off here, 

at the station.

The Pisces Lunar Eclipse Station. 

All the baggage she had brought aboard was 

now being told she can no longer take them with her. 

It was time to move on without them. 

But what was she leaving behind?

She came empty handed. 

The only thing she could think of that needed 

letting go was all the shadows she had 

held onto since childhood.

Teen-hood..

Adolescent-hood.

These shadows had followed her all her life. 

They had become the very friends she turned to.

They attracted to her similar, familiar situations

that she could repeat over and over again 

for comfort. 

They were like her big bowl of Ramen. 

Hot, Spicy, Fishy, and Fake!  

The life they kept attracting to her was always one

of combat and wits. 

Who was going to prove more fabulous?

Until Now.

With the Pisces Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, Neptune was coming

in strong, along with his friends, Pluto and Uranus. 

Together, this Trio was revealing all kinds of tactics

and escape modalities that

she was using and never really even saw where 

she reproduced  it from. 

Rather than creating, from who she was, inside out. 

She had been walking backwards the whole time.

She kept going through the revolving door expecting 

to actually get into the building of life. 

But this revolving door only led her to the same place twice.

As if it was all on repeat. 

Time and time again.

So she stopped. 

Finally. 

And during the Eclipse, she was going to just be still.

And she would allow for all that was never 

right... 

to turn left.

And all that was always left...

Would be right. 

And from there, she would allow for 

Holy Spirit to finally be her one and only true guide. 

Because in order for her to create, 

that was the only way forward.

Uno Mas

She was sitting on the bench with her buds, when he came up. 

 

Now, the story behind him was this. 

A couple of nights ago, he had done something that disgusted her so much, that she was done day dreaming of him.

Then to top it off, the day after, he had cemented it with his actions towards her. 

What actions? 

He simply said Hi to his friends, but completely avoided her. 

 

She knew this game. 

Make her feel low, so he can seem bigger later. 

So she was well aware today. 

Today when he showed up again. 

He fist bumped Aries first..

Then came to her. 

Fist in the air...

 

She asked seriously,

"Are you sure?" 

 

He replied almost instantly with "yeah of course? Why?"

And that's when she looked him in the eyes and said the truth... 

"Because you ignored me the other day and gave me the evil eye as you walked by..."

He tried real hard to deny it. 

But she knew what she saw.

 

He wasn't off the hook that easily. 

Not with her. 

She said okay, but he knew what she meant..

'Prove it.'

So the rest of the night, he scrambled for a moment where he could in fact...

Prove it.

 

 

And that's when it presented itself. 

The moment where he could be...

'The man.'

And so it went. 

When the guy who had threatened his friend showed up again, he took the stand! 

All because she had said... 

"Can you believe he pulled a knife on him?" 

 

She knew energy. 

He was trying hard to play the hero..

But was it for her? 

Or was it for his Ego? 

Cuz of course, he had his girlfriend at his side by the time the opportunity to prove himself presented itself.

 

So she was, of course, left to feel confused. 

Which is exactly why she played her cards to reflect his. 

 

She told him to be careful,

 

because her last boyfriend was deported for being just as tough as he was trying to prove himself to be.

Same Place Different Worlds

After the New Moon Solar Eclipse, 

she was a new girl.

 

Something awoke in her that finally 

revealed an amazing truth. 

Astronomy and Astrology  

were

 two 

totally

 different 

things, 

that really need 

not ever be brought together! 

When brought together, all they did was 

cast upon the free world a ton of 

limitations, 

but it also cast quite the spell over anyone who dared 

to dabble in it. 

She realized exactly that, 

when she had happened upon 

astrology.

That it had come from a never ending 

battle between her parents over 

something called a Horoscope...

To her it was more of a Horror Scope then what it 

tried to pretend itself to be. 

Her parents would fight over a prediction 

told by a supposedly psychic person. 

What made it even worse though, 

is they would believe this external person 

over their own Holy Spirit! 

And then that's where she realized... 

They weren't connected to their Holy Spirits. 

Cuz if they were, they never would have 

fallen for such a silly little invention

such as the horoscope. 

Thus, today, she realized that all her own wisdoms, 

were not coming from Holy Spirit completely

either. 

She too had been fooled to believe

that the zodiac signs 

were a real thing and she ran with it from day two. 

Until one day 

when she was finally back with Holy Spirit. 

and he pointed it out to her during one of her shadow readings. 

In the cards, 

it kept telling her to let it all go. 

All that she learned growing up... 

But it wasn't until the Solar Eclipse, that she finally 

put two and two together. 

The stars were real. 

The constellations, were just drawings. 

Someone else's ideas.

An external spirit!  

And so now it all made sense!

Why she was stuck!

Repeating old patterns and not being able to evolve beyond it!

Purgatory one would call it. 

And others might say, 

the Labyrinth

She knew just from the sound of it that 

it was all off. 

Way off. 

The real truth...

Looked like this...

Everything else was what someone else created

in order to control an entire world. 

But it was time for it all to come to an end. 

She knew that much. 

Burning up or down?

The Leo New Moon Solar Eclipse was creeping in ever so slowly,

yet she could hear the roar of the lion ever so loudly

as if it had already came and conquered. 

Was she ready though?

Was she ready to face her Lyin'?

Would she lose her head over it?

Or would she choose confidence and bold release?

Release of all that which was never her to begin with.

 She felt the first growl early this morning when she 

finished making her bracelet. 

As she was packing up her bag to go do the next thing

she realized she had zero energy. 

Grrrowl  came from the Lyin Lion... 

Was she using her creativity to do things she didn't even 

enjoy?

Was she doing her bracelets to only get money?

Cuz her fuel tank was empty...

Then as she went to go do her shadow readings, 

she found great joy in speaking from inside out. 

But the minute she finished and it was time to post 

it, there came a hesitation. 

The Repelled Shadow! 

Growing up she knew she loved to let her energy flow. 

Until one day, when she was shining her light and love  and 

it had met an external darkness.

The shadow of

Rejection!

This is where she had decided that in order to not be 

excluded, she would need to strategize 

outside in. 

But this went against her true love and light and so 

to this day, she keeps finding all kinds of creative endeavors,

but none that which is actually her real truth. 

Those she always felt hesitant and horrified to show... 

 Now, with Leo the Lion getting eclipsed by his lioness...

There was no more Lyin.

It was time to come clean in everything. 

It was also a time to pick just one. 

She had a million hobbies. 

She admitted that much to herself. 

She could also pretty much do anything she put her mind to. 

However, there really was only one thing she truly 

enjoyed wholeheartedly... 

But that very thing, was the only thing people 

persecuted her for.