Naughty or Nice?

 The Virgo New Moon was glaring through it's 

magnifying glass at her. 

She couldn't figure out which way to even look

let alone know which way to go. 

Virgo was definitely not one of her specialty signs.

Even though, there was a tiny part of her that 

begged to differ.

She had been travelling down a deep sometimes light, 

sometimes dark road, 

and she couldn't quite determine if she was 

half asleep or wide awake!

Perhaps she was sleepwalking?

That was her Mercury mind. 

All over the place but never actually really there.

One would surely get lost trying to sort out 

her life and her ways. 

Lately,

 she's been coming to the realization that 

maybe her brain, wasn't really HER brain.

Perhaps,

 the brain she was running with was twisted 

together with a whole lot of experiences 

that which she had misperceived.

There was in fact three different wakes of life 

in which experiences were felt, 

and perhaps she had entangled all of them

as her idea,

 rather than the truth of what they really were;

Other people's end results. 

So now with this Virgo New Moon coming 

right up on her heels with it's glaring magnifying glass, 

it was time to examine all the bread crumbs

she'd been following time and time again.

The truth was about to come out, 

and she knew it.

Could she have become her own clever brand of 

Narcissist?

Was she so good at bread crumbing herself that she had

fallen into a loop of doom void, 

known as the Abyss?

This Virgo New Moon was coming in strong, 

and was not going to allow her to continue this

type of abuse with herself.

Uranus and Venus were checking her twice...

Was she still dabbling in the Naughty?

Or was she going to go for the gold and 

Be Nice?

Come Christmas time and she will know...

As will everyone else. 

Stay tuned....

The Loneliest Number

 It was one of those days 

Where she wasn't trying to see signs,

Yet many of them just kept 

Popping up in front of her. 

Like the Goose. 

Not geese...

Just one goose. 

Sitting there.

All alone.

Right there.

On the side of the sidewalk.

In the grass, (of course)

Just staring at her riding her bike past.

As with all animals she was first shocked! 

Then composed herself and said a

 "hey there!" Joyfully.

But most of the Joy was actually

Coming from shock and surprise

With a dab of fear,

Cuz yes,

 she feared all of nature's creatures. 

Then later in the day, 

As she sat watching her favorite

T.v. show, 

Three's Company,

A small yet quite larger than

A mosquito, insect came a buzzing up

To her.

He first came and kept humping her headset

Cord. 

Then started humping her back pack. 

Each time,

 she scolded him,

"Go on, get!"

Then, to her surprise, he came back with

Another! 

She couldn't believe it! 

He had brought his lover! 

And that's when it hit her.

Mother nature was trying to tell

Her something major important. 

Nature was pointing it out to her that

She needed to stop being alone. 

She needed another. 

Yet. 

Here she sat...

All alone. 

Watching Three's Company 

Something was off...

But what was she to do? 

And that's when a drop of rain landed

On her left arm. 

Venus. 

Where was her Venus connection? 

Was she able to reconnect to it? 

After all the trauma and disconnect?

Was she ever going to be able to reconnect

To her vision and values in order

To finally attract

A match? 

And even if she could, 

would she actually be able to follow through? 

Why was life so hard? 

Was it even worth tying? 

If only she had any energy left to find out. 

Military Trail

The Solar Eclipse in Leo had dropped her off here, 

at the station.

The Pisces Lunar Eclipse Station. 

All the baggage she had brought aboard was 

now being told she can no longer take them with her. 

It was time to move on without them. 

But what was she leaving behind?

She came empty handed. 

The only thing she could think of that needed 

letting go was all the shadows she had 

held onto since childhood.

Teen-hood..

Adolescent-hood.

These shadows had followed her all her life. 

They had become the very friends she turned to.

They attracted to her similar, familiar situations

that she could repeat over and over again 

for comfort. 

They were like her big bowl of Ramen. 

Hot, Spicy, Fishy, and Fake!  

The life they kept attracting to her was always one

of combat and wits. 

Who was going to prove more fabulous?

Until Now.

With the Pisces Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, Neptune was coming

in strong, along with his friends, Pluto and Uranus. 

Together, this Trio was revealing all kinds of tactics

and escape modalities that

she was using and never really even saw where 

she reproduced  it from. 

Rather than creating, from who she was, inside out. 

She had been walking backwards the whole time.

She kept going through the revolving door expecting 

to actually get into the building of life. 

But this revolving door only led her to the same place twice.

As if it was all on repeat. 

Time and time again.

So she stopped. 

Finally. 

And during the Eclipse, she was going to just be still.

And she would allow for all that was never 

right... 

to turn left.

And all that was always left...

Would be right. 

And from there, she would allow for 

Holy Spirit to finally be her one and only true guide. 

Because in order for her to create, 

that was the only way forward.

Uno Mas

She was sitting on the bench with her buds, when he came up. 

 

Now, the story behind him was this. 

A couple of nights ago, he had done something that disgusted her so much, that she was done day dreaming of him.

Then to top it off, the day after, he had cemented it with his actions towards her. 

What actions? 

He simply said Hi to his friends, but completely avoided her. 

 

She knew this game. 

Make her feel low, so he can seem bigger later. 

So she was well aware today. 

Today when he showed up again. 

He fist bumped Aries first..

Then came to her. 

Fist in the air...

 

She asked seriously,

"Are you sure?" 

 

He replied almost instantly with "yeah of course? Why?"

And that's when she looked him in the eyes and said the truth... 

"Because you ignored me the other day and gave me the evil eye as you walked by..."

He tried real hard to deny it. 

But she knew what she saw.

 

He wasn't off the hook that easily. 

Not with her. 

She said okay, but he knew what she meant..

'Prove it.'

So the rest of the night, he scrambled for a moment where he could in fact...

Prove it.

 

 

And that's when it presented itself. 

The moment where he could be...

'The man.'

And so it went. 

When the guy who had threatened his friend showed up again, he took the stand! 

All because she had said... 

"Can you believe he pulled a knife on him?" 

 

She knew energy. 

He was trying hard to play the hero..

But was it for her? 

Or was it for his Ego? 

Cuz of course, he had his girlfriend at his side by the time the opportunity to prove himself presented itself.

 

So she was, of course, left to feel confused. 

Which is exactly why she played her cards to reflect his. 

 

She told him to be careful,

 

because her last boyfriend was deported for being just as tough as he was trying to prove himself to be.