Tuesday, April 7, 2026

As Most Days goes

April 1st, 2026... 

Was the day of the Libra Full Moon 

as it was also the day

the doors to the School of Life closed for 

Spring and Summer Vacation. 


She only panicked for about a day or two, 

but then things began to unravel for her rather quickly. 

It all began when she slipped and allowed for 

the Guatemalan boy to re-enter her life. 

It happened ever so quickly, that it seemed as though there was 

some sort of game afoot... 


 With the Libra Full Moon energy in play, 

she knew exactly what she was playing with too. 

Her glitch in relating. 

She knew that if she had blocked him already, 

not even just once, but several times actually within 

the course of their dating escapades, 

then there must have been a rewired truth within 

that was operating subconsciously 

completely against her. 


And so it came to revelation once and for all

the demon within her... 

Operating ever so slyly behind the scenes. 

She knew her picker was broken,

 but she never thought 

she would replace her disappointments and indifference

to her feelings

with the very demon that lived off her 

fear of relating. 

Fear of being unheard. 

Fear of being abandoned. 

Fear of being Insignificant, weak, and Powerless.

So when he showed back up in her life, 

just like clockwork,

she was back to her head over heels

"in Lust"

again.


Which ran for about three days after they had left 

the school of life. 

He had left and went to a town 4 cities over

and immediately landed a job and a room for rent. 

Whereas she had left and went to a town she adored. 

Everything was as she loved from inside out. 



Over the course of three days, 

he would text her about all his success and fortunes.

Meanwhile she would mention to him all 

her struggles and desires for help. 

He ignored every plea of hers 

and only centered on himself. 

Waiting and wanting her applause 

and validations which she gave but felt as though

the balance was completely off. 

He wasn't hearing a word she said. 

And when she needed him, 

He was nowhere to be found. 

Then, 

if all that wasn't enough stress for her, 

he would check in with her demanding to 

know who she was with and where she was sleeping. 

Yet, when she told him her truth, 

his only reply always was, 

"I Don't Believe You."


So the day had come when he had his day off, 

and he wrote to her, 

"I want to see you."

Asmodeus sent his raunchy vibes through her veins. 

She got excited. 

She remembered the bitter sweet kisses... 

And she couldn't wait to jump on the chance at 

another revenge session 

to prove she was still something wanted. 


But then she stopped herself. 

She took her spirit, and reconnected it to holy spirit.

Holy Spirit told her that in order to 

win against Asmodeus, 

all she had to do was 

Listen to her true hearts values, joys, wishes and desires,

and act on them.

And that if this boy wasn't matching her true vibe, 

then he wasn't worth her time or energy. 

And so she finally listened. 

She was able to cut the cord 

once and for all 

from all of the false beliefs

that kept her spinning webs of self deceit

for a very very long time. 






 

Wednesday, April 1, 2026

Bread Crumby Attitude

She asked him, 

"Are you a part of a gang?"

To which he pointed to three dots on his left hand. 


A three-dot tattoo on the hand, often arranged in a triangle, most commonly symbolizes "Mi Vida Loca" or "my crazy life," representing a lifestyle on the edge, gang affiliation, or time spent in prison. It can also signify resilience, the past-present-future, or a spiritual trinity, and is sometimes called a "party dot".

When he had said the words to her ,

 "I'm from Guatamala", 

The word Gang was flashing before her eyes. 

And those 

Three Dots clarified it right up for her. 

How did she always manage to attract the toughest of the bunch?

And then she thought... 

What bunch? 


The third world I only know how to use my fists to 

solve anything bunch?



But then, she did attract them, so she really couldn't say 

she was any better. 

She didn't even want to. 

She never liked to compare herself or anyone else for that 

matter. 

But so back to this gang member. 

What was interesting about him though, was how he came off 

so shy, and so silent. 

So kind, and so generous. 

But then, he also didn't lead. 

Instead, he pulled her right out of her feminine essence 

and left her to make all the decisions. 

All the choices. 

All the plans. 

How was this a gang member? 

Oh... 

Duh.. 

Gangs were followers. 

Not Leaders. 

No wonder he kept doing the trinity walk with her... 

Only with him it wasn't the light side. 

It was the shadow side. 

The light side as she knew it was;

The Father, 

The Son,

and

Holy Spirit. 

However, the shadow side of the so called trinity,

which she was receiving 

from him was more so;

The Father,

Son,

and 

The Black Moon Lilith's Ghost. 

The way she knew was because he had text her,

"I miss you, 

Where are you?

Who are you with?"

As she read over his words, 

something in her stomach twisted. 

The Trinity was all love,

and for him, to say I miss you then immediately string along

Where are you? and Who are you with?

Definitely did not suggestion love, but more so 

 suspicion and assumption. 

She knew there was a shadow lurking behind those words. 

And she wasn't going to even try to 

correct him or change him. 

She had finally learned that people needed to

come as they are

as they were... 

Not as she wanted them to be. 


And so she accepted that this guy was definitely

still way behind on his security lessons. 

And so she blocked him immediately. 

The last thing she needed was a bunch of gang members

putting her in the ground all because 

her "would be boyfriend", wrongly accused

 her because of his insecurities. 






Friday, March 27, 2026

SpyDer Web

 She was at the counter of the McDonald's just 

patiently awaiting for a server to become available. 

As she stood there watching them put together

a to-go order, a dark shadow appeared to the right of her. 

She took a glance over and saw a tall dark figure

with black hair, wearing a black hoodie and black pants. 

The only thing that struck her fancy

was the slight glimpse of a gold bar earring that dangled from

his left ear. 

She caught his eye and gave him her most innocent smile. 

Innocent because he sort of actually kind of scared her. 

Being so tall, dark, and handsome... 

She knew she wasn't ready for that deep of an encounter so early 

in the morning.

When the server appeared, she looked over at the two of them

and asked, who first? 

Even though, she had been waiting there first before he came in, 

she motioned to the server to let him go first.

Not because she didn't believe in women first, but more so because  

she just wanted him gone before asking for a second cup of coffee.

As soon as he picked up his to-go order, 

he dashed out the door like Santa up a chimney, 

or better yet, a witch on it's broom. 

He could have been either for all she knew. 

She took in a deep breath and let it out slowly, 

then,

 once her heart slowed down some, she went back to her table. 

As she continued to journal with Holy Spirit, 

A dark shadow loomed over her notebook as she was writing. 

She dared to look up and saw the tall dark figure 

with the Golden Earring. 

Startled, she gave out her best smile and quietly said Hello.

He asked if he could please sit down. 

She was surprised but also a bit scared. 

Who was this man? 

So she began asking questions. 

She found out he was from Columbia. 

The South American one. 

To which she gave her respect. 

And he just slyly ginned as if he knew exactly why.

She found out he was a Scorpio and admitted to him 

that his deep dark mysterious ways, gave him away. 

He said, oh really!? 

Then pointed to her papers.

He saw she was reading a natal chart and asked her if she knew

about that stars. She replied yes, of course, do you? 

To which he too agreed. 

He mentioned to her that she should read for people, 

and that she really shouldn't be alone. 

To which she replied, I'm not. I'm dating a guy. 

He told her to hang tight to him. 

But she was already having issues with the guy she was dating and 

it was only their second date. 

The mysterious dark figure took out his phone 

and showed her a picture of his kid. 

Cute little runt named, Maximon




Maximón is said to represent both light and dark, and to be a trickster. He is both a womanizer and a protector of couples.[3]

Another legend states that Maximón was hired by traveling fishermen to protect the virtue of their wives. Instead, Maximón disguised himself and slept with all of them.[3]


She was confused... 

But took it all in. 

He mentioned to her that he was married and that his wife lived with him.

She asked him the dumbest question yet, 

What was he doing talking to her if he had a wife and child?

But something told her this was all an illusion.

 

Not a mirage, not a delusion,

But more so an illusion brought on by her own created illusions.

After the tall dark handsome married man left, 

she realized that the guy she was dating also left her 

that day and went on a drinking binge. 

While he was out, Holy Spirit told her to look up

the spiritual belief of Guatemala,

 from whence her 'beau'

originated from. 

There she found

Mayan. 



The Maya civilization (/ˈmə/) was a Mesoamerican civilization that existed from antiquity to the early modern period. It is known by its ancient temples and glyphs (script). The Maya script is the most sophisticated and highly developed writing system in the pre-Columbian Americas. The civilization is also noted for its artarchitecturemathematicscalendar, and astronomical system.

She had nothing against religions, 

however, on their second date, they went hiking in the woods

and that is where they had found their first block. 

During their hike, he had mentioned to her, 

that he was not allowed to be with her because of her spirit. 

Unless he drinks. 

Which is why he had gone hiking with her that day 

while taking to the drink. 

Now it was all beginning to make sense to her. 

The tall dark Columbian,

 married,

 with a kid, 

coming to her asking her to get with him...

This little witch doctor was creating all kinds of magic for her to 

jump through. 

Good thing she had Holy Spirit, otherwise he would have 

devoured her alive!

When the little spell castor came back to the shelter, 

or the school of life, as she liked to call it, 

he was totally wasted. 

She was disgusted and asked him straight up, 

Are you Mayan? 

His response, 

"Who told you!?"

She didn't respond, only told him that it didn't bother her. 

He asked her to go outside with him and get freaky, 

to which she immediately shut him down. 

The rejection got the best of him because he pulled up a photo

of a blonde orderly from the shelter and told her

he'll just ask the orderly then. 

 Boom!

Up rolled her window and locked real tight. 

She turned and walked away quietly 

and 

once she made it back to her cot, she took out her phone

and completely blocked him from everything. 

The next day, she ignored him like the black plaque

 and left 

the building to go on a hike alone. 

When she got back in the evening, an orderly came up to her

and asked her, did you know he was looking for you all day?

She replied, "no, we aren't dating anymore". 

The orderly said, "well that's good cuz we caught him 

drinking in the building and he was escorted out by the police. 

He is banned from the shelter for a whole year." 

And so... 

She sighed a sigh of relief. 

If she would have never listened to Holy Spirit, 

she would have been the next fly

 in the center of a web 

getting devoured.

Funny how things come together,

isn't it? 






Sunday, March 8, 2026

The Break Down

 A few days after the Full Moon in Virgo, 

came a day she would never forget. 

Her Birthday. 

She never really understood it's importance though, 

however, she did see it as a day of reckoning. 

Where exactly was she in her life?

And just where did she want to continue to go?

As she sat at the bus stop drinking her beer, 

her son text her with a warm Happy birthday greeting. 

Her spirits lifted!

She was remembered. 

Then a few words into chatting, 

it all came to a sudden halt. 

She waited and waited for the response. 

It never came. 

She began watching facebook reels and 15 minutes into it, realized

she wasn't going to get a response anytime soon. 

So she tried again.

Still no response. 

She wrote out to her son, how she felt being left hanging.

But to no avail did even the three little ghost dots appear. 

She was left hanging. 

Again. 

This was not a first time event between her and her son. 

This was a reoccurring pattern. 

It was time for her to stop looking and feeling into her son's 

life. 

Stop worrying about hurting his feelings over her own.

Just because she was his Mom did not mean she had to take 

what she wasn't putting out.

And so she did the hardest thing ever possible...

She blocked him. 

He was 25 now,

 there was no more teaching or preaching to him.

Only accepting him for who he was in the now moment. 

She accepted him as is, but she also valued herself 

and her energetic energy level.

And so she did what she had to do in that now moment. 

And then, 

the next day, she processed her feelings around it all. 

She sent light and love out to all those whom she had come 

across in this lifetime  that did not match her values.

However, 

she also had to block them all out of her life 

because otherwise, she would stay stuck in-between

the half and half existence required 

to 

have both ways work. 

This was the hardest lesson in life that the 

Virgo Full Moon had taught her. 

Yet this time,

 she was finally ready to receive it.