Relate with Me

The New Moon Solar Eclipse in Virgo had 

arrived with a serious dark cloud which lingered 

well into the after thoughts of its ever having even existed. 

But she was very well aware internally of its arrival.

Even days before it hit, she was facing every 

fear deep within her that was ready to be seen

and heard finally. 

Head on, she talked with each fear and negotiated 

final truths. 

Only now, it was actually time to step into them.

Her first test came the day of the New Moon. 

She was heading home and on her final bus.

As she got off at the stop nearest her stuff,

the boy from long long ago, 

got off too. 

As she looked over her shoulder, they made eye contact. 

She felt the sudden shock which immediately 

activated her go to mechanism. 

She began asking him a series of questions, 

like an interrogation,

 without even 

allowing a flow of conversation to develop.

 As an Aries rising, she honestly couldn't be 

patient enough to wait for the man to say something first. 

However,

Why did she jump into a string of questioning?

Was it because she was afraid of him 

getting the chance to actually ask her a question?

But why? 

And that's when she saw it. 

She was afraid to let him know who she really was. 

She was deaf. 

And that embarrassed her. 

Her go to mechanism was always to just go into 

a verbal rant so that the action of the flow

of words would halt the person from trying to connect 

with her. 

But this was tied to a fear. 

She began to dissect why she had a fear of letting people know 

who she really was. 

She was Deaf. 

However, there was a bigger fear behind that 

simple little statement.

And it was definitely a lot more 

twisted then what surface level issue she was trying to believe.

Because she knew that there were plenty of times when she 

would tell people that she was deaf and they didn't even hear her. 

They continued to try to talk to her regardless. 

Making her feel stupid for always asking them to repeat. 

So, there was something here that didn't want to be seen or heard. 

People not wanting to believe her. 

Not wanting to hear her. 

Not wanting to acknowledge her truth. 

Was somehow reflecting where she herself was not 

acknowledging her own truth. 

If her truth was that she was afraid to be rejected for being 

deaf, then that fear of rejection for being deaf 

was actually tied to the false belief that 

being rejected meant that she was not worthy!

BOOM! 

There it was! 

The truth! 

Being rejected for being who she was did not mean 

she was not worthy. 

She was worthy regardless. 

However, should she have put an attachment to an external 

person as more worthy than herself?

Then yes, 

this is where the illusion was open to sorcery. 

 Lilith. 

Hekate.

Eris. 

The three of them could cause great strife and turmoil

for a person, should that person give away 

their true power... 

Venus. 

Back in the days, 

Pluto was thought of as Power for the longest time,

 but then the truth came out. 

Not that he was demoted to dwarf planet, 

but rather that he was a Trans Neptunian Object (TNO). 

The only power he did have was when an emotion 

went unprocessed. 

Then He Totally Ruled that realm. 

And Hekate was the one that 

ran the attraction between the other two realms 

creating Hell on Earth.

So, if she really wanted Heaven as her reflection... 

She needed to process this fear now 

and chose her next step.