Under the 'Missile' Toe?

It was Christmas day when she  

finally dared to question what she was 

always afraid to question. 

What exactly were people celebrating?

What exactly was the real meaning behind 

all this forced from guilt giving? 

To her,

 it was one thing to give when a person 

had an overflow of joyful abundance. 

However, to give because it was a specified universal

man made holiday... 

yet, the desire to give was not from an overflow, 

but rather an internal guilt wired idea... 

This really made her question what exactly was at 

the base of this idea? 

What had totally rewired everyone's brain 

to believe that if they did not do or celebrate 

this man made holiday, then somehow they were going 

against a God... 

Christ.... The son of God...

But yet, Christ was crucified by the people. 

Murdered. 

And yet, the idea of the murder was that God 

did it for a purpose to free the very people who did it. 

Guilt. 

There it Was! 

The loop.

She saw it bright as the North star! 

Christ-mas....

A mass of cult like followers of this very idea!

She knew at a very young age that she did not like

the feelings that came from this man made Holiday.

She would always see the stress on her parents faces

then the lies of being thankful for gifts 

they never wanted or needed.

The disappointments when there wasn't enough money

yet the struggle to please external people before ones own self.

Was all felt by her so loudly!

She knew that 

Christmas was the reason everyone kept sinning. 

And to sin is what connects humans to 

external evil spirits. 

Through this idea, 

they come rushing in with 

each lie being spoken, 

each self sacrifice being made,

and 

each time one would self deceive

with a false gratitude made from the belief that 

something better would happen to them later. 

Such a sad sad day she thought. 

Not for her, but for those who believed in this lie. 

However, she had finally learned, that it was not for her 

to feel bad for them. 

It was up to her to make herself feel her true joy

by always being honest with herself and what she 

enjoyed, and then actually doing them!

Like she was here. 

Blogging. 

Speaking her truth. 

. That was the gift she was truly grateful for. 

And she thanked her internal Holy Spirit for awakening

her to this truth!