Create the Future Now!

 10 years ago, he had left this world. 

Nevertheless, 

10 years later, she was still unraveling his mess. 

His mess which entangled with her newly created beliefs. 

Which she continued to recreate 

time and time again,

hoping for a new start.

However, 

what she never saw underneath it all...

 was a false belief.

An illusion.

A projection turned delusion. 

All this time it was Ceres and Persephone

that continued to strike deals 

back and forth

inside her.

Half and half.

With guess who!?

Hades, The Devil, Satan, Lucifer!

Call it what you want, 

but in the end, 

Just call him, Dad. 

Father 

God. 

With all her knowing of energy and the planets,

the one thing she never thought to conceive

was the fact that the energy was playing out 

within the families she chose to be born into.

 

In this family it was Ceres and Persephone.

Mother Daughter dominion, power, control.

Yet, 

when it came to love, 

jealousy was the game. 

You can't have me if you want him. 

So you have to split. 

But meanwhile, 

because of the split, 

neither world was ever really good or joyful,

it was always 

an either or... 

Take your pick, 

Hot as Hell?

 or 

Cold as Hell?

Either way, 

it was always Hell. 

Neither felt right. 

Day needed night.

and

Hot needed cold.

The balance needed to be brought together.

and so she knew,

It was time to end this Half and Half game. 

The in between,

both sides, 

I'm just gonna stay stuck, BullSh*t!

It was a time now, 

10 years later,

 that she put herself back together

the right way. 

With Holy Spirit, she was going to rebirth 

life the way it always was before death took over.

But first she needed to remove the false belief

that nurturing herself was an external 

thing. 

Money didn't come from people. 

It was a created reflection of that which she enjoyed.

Her ability to be on this planet and feel.

Just feel and be;

 exist. 

That was the starter energy. 

Once she had mastered that, 

she would use her action energy, 

the masculine 'do energy' to do for herself all that 

the be body was feeling. 

Hunger, needing to release, needing to stretch and 

breathe slowly... 

all those required her masculine energy to take steps. 

But before she could do anything, 

Holy spirit needed activating. 

Otherwise there was no attracting the very things 

her masculine energy needed in order to fulfill the feminine 

needs, values, and desires!

So one of the most important aspects 

that she really needed to learn, grasp and use 

in this life, 

was calling on Holy Spirit before every little 

step she chose to make.