The Break Down

 A few days after the Full Moon in Virgo, 

came a day she would never forget. 

Her Birthday. 

She never really understood it's importance though, 

however, she did see it as a day of reckoning. 

Where exactly was she in her life?

And just where did she want to continue to go?

As she sat at the bus stop drinking her beer, 

her son text her with a warm Happy birthday greeting. 

Her spirits lifted!

She was remembered. 

Then a few words into chatting, 

it all came to a sudden halt. 

She waited and waited for the response. 

It never came. 

She began watching facebook reels and 15 minutes into it, realized

she wasn't going to get a response anytime soon. 

So she tried again.

Still no response. 

She wrote out to her son, how she felt being left hanging.

But to no avail did even the three little ghost dots appear. 

She was left hanging. 

Again. 

This was not a first time event between her and her son. 

This was a reoccurring pattern. 

It was time for her to stop looking and feeling into her son's 

life. 

Stop worrying about hurting his feelings over her own.

Just because she was his Mom did not mean she had to take 

what she wasn't putting out.

And so she did the hardest thing ever possible...

She blocked him. 

He was 25 now,

 there was no more teaching or preaching to him.

Only accepting him for who he was in the now moment. 

She accepted him as is, but she also valued herself 

and her energetic energy level.

And so she did what she had to do in that now moment. 

And then, 

the next day, she processed her feelings around it all. 

She sent light and love out to all those whom she had come 

across in this lifetime  that did not match her values.

However, 

she also had to block them all out of her life 

because otherwise, she would stay stuck in-between

the half and half existence required 

to 

have both ways work. 

This was the hardest lesson in life that the 

Virgo Full Moon had taught her. 

Yet this time,

 she was finally ready to receive it.