Brewing Below...

The Aries Full Moon was bringing up, 

through a boil over energy,

all the areas of her self connection

that were completely off. 

She had just uncovered the

 disappointment shadow with Holy Spirit,

however, the disappointment in herself 

was the next to be seen. 

She felt nauseated and couldn't quite understand why?

She was about to do what she loved and 

for some reason felt as though

all her energy was drained, 

leaving her nauseated. 

She thought about the last time she felt 

nauseated and how the drain came

from trying to manage it. 

So she  didn't manage it this time. 

She let it speak.

 

Her Venus told her that she had been draining

all her energy with external people 

whom she didn't even respect. 

And she kept humiliating them all with her high

pride. 

She was a user,

 a thief, 

and worst of all,

a narcissist!  

No wonder after last night,

all she could feel now is a complete

and utter disappointment in herself.

She wanted to point the finger

 and say, 

"See! these people are so lost and need fixing."

But these people were really her reflection.

Each one having their own personal issue. 

Gemini and Virgo had no communication

and constantly hurt each other 

in the name of love.

Aries was indifferent to himself and his pains,

but always had everyone else's back.

Scorpio was abandoned and feared 

not being good enough, 

so he became an over giver yet stays isolated. 

Cancer was tough, but only because he 

was a turtle. The hard shell protected him, 

but inside he was all soft and squishy.

And so Cancer was always coming and going,

but never where he really wanted to be because 

no one was accepting him, cuz he couldn't even 

accept himself.

And last night, 

Pisces came back. 

 Pisces, from the old school of life,

reflected to her once again

where she had disgust in herself.

Where she wanted to love and be loved

but didn't even know how to love herself.

With all this boiling over, 

she took a second look over all her friends

and admitted to herself finally

that she was the one in need of finding and fixing.

She was the one who had changed herself 

a long long time ago.

Letting go of her true 

values, visions, wishes, and desires.

If she really wanted things to change, 

it was up to her to speak her truth 

with love. 

Not run, chase, fight, or teach. 

So for this Full Moon in Aries coming up, 

she decided to turn in her sword.

And step down off the pedestal. 

She let free her high horse!