One Last Hit....

After the full moon in Taurus, 

Very much had come up for her in all aspects of

her world. 

From;

 Dreams,

to realities

to illusions 

and 

to shadows,

She was swimming in what felt like the deepest darkest 

murkiest waters of the abyss. 

It was time to stop. 

She was ready to stop swimming against the rip current

and call in Holy Spirit for guidance. 

What was she to do?

Nothings was as it seemed. 

She'd been wearing rose colored glasses since day one. 

But now, since Venus was retrograde in Scorpio 

and Mercury joined alongside with her... 

Nothing was pink and sparkly anymore.

Everything was proving to be the worst of the worst.

Her back hurt, 

her stomach wasn't healing one bit.

In fact she was beginning to run low on energy in every

which way.

Was her Plutonic Ex right all along?

Was she going to die of an incurable disease?

Was she ready?

She sure felt like it. 

She was Tired.

She was Numb.

She was in utter Despair.

There was nothing else she could do. 

And 

even if there was, 

she had no energy or motivation, let alone will, 

to even continue. 

There was no amount of beer that she could drink anymore

to forget and erase how she was feeling. 

The shadows have won. 

She couldn't go on anymore. 

So she wasn't going to.

She was just going to stop.