Spaced Out

It was A New Month.

Still Summer.

Still Hot as Balls trapped in tighty whiteys.

But she was not the same. 

Something in her had caught fire and left nothing 

behind. 

Not one single shred of hope. 

Not an ounce of will power.

Not even a tiny bit of oomph! 

There was just no inspiration left for her to go on. 

Even her Shadow readings were getting old.

She wasn't bored though. 

So this wasn't a shadow glitch. 

She was just Empty. 

And she figured that was a good sign. 

Because if the feeling of empty came from the bottom 

of the depressed barrel, 

then she knew it wasn't going to be too much longer that

something was going to change. 

555

It read on the clock. 

That was her sign seconded.

She really wanted to live. 

She just didn't know how any more. 

Holy Spirit kept saying on repeat, 

"Inside out"...

"Follow your joy".

"Do what you value". 

And she honestly believed she was doing it all. 

But then why was she feeling so empty?

What was missing? 

She had hit a wall. 

A Brick Wall.

Waterfall...

The Leo New Moon Solar Eclipse was on it's way...

Would it help her?

Or would it End her? 

This was the million Dollar Question

she really wasn't too eager to answer. 

But she sure hoped something good would 

come of it.. 

However, that's where she realized she was still waiting

 for an external spirit to show up for her. 

To fulfill her. 

Athena! 

The strategy she was harboring. 

Thinking all the answers were already out there. 

Maybe this time, she needed to create her own answer?

What exactly did she want though?

A house?

A Car?

A flow?

But how? 

"Go out and look!" they would say to her. 

"Apply!"

But to what?

To what could she apply herself to?

She was deaf.

She couldn't lift more than 10 pounds. 

She was an artist. 

A starved artist. 

Her work went unnoticed. 

No one wanted to buy any of her stuff. 

Except the bad boys of Sterling. 

They wanted her 'stuff '.

So they bought her stuff. 

How pathetic. 

Something was off. 

But why couldn't she see it? 

It was time to call in her Mars and Venus... 

Perhaps they could show her again?