Your Blindfold's on FiRe!

  He stood in the darkness... 

Searching...

Watching...

Trying to zero in on his target...

Before he could make his move, he had to be 100 percent positive

that this was indeed his set mission. 

Cuz once activated, there was no going back. 

She was standing by the bar,

 searching out all the visions she saw before her.

When was the right moment for her to go in?

That was always her goal. 

When to prance. 

When to attack..

When to seduce...

and when to actually lure, deceive, and destroy. 

She really never set out to deceive or destroy, but she knew 

that when she seduced and lured, that's pretty much all she was

going to be able to concoct. 

She played this game for a good long while... 

However, her heart had a totally different purpose here

 on this beautiful planet.

And so that night, blindly she was lured in by him. 

She never saw him, only felt his energy. 

It was very powerful and had rendered her helpless and bound. 

He poured out lie after lie and she took them all 

straight up 

no chasers! 

She was somehow under a complete and total spell.

She was under his siege.

She was taken hostage..

And she unknowingly went along with it. 

Where would this go, she thought?

Being the Warrior she played herself to be, 

she allowed herself to find out just how far it could go. 

But secretly, her soul was taking notes... 

It was a very rocky beginning for her. 

This should have been her first clue to take caution. 

But she didn't. 

Instead, when the first red flag arose...

She chose to pick it up and wrapped it around her eyes, 

like a blindfold. 

However, when the second red flag arose and caught both the first 

flag and second flag on fire... 

She decided to pick up more beer and put the fires out. 

Then she picked up the burnt flag pieces and tried to sew them back together

with her wonderful crafting skills that God had given her. 

Needless to say, this constant blinding of her Pride, Ego, and Fears... 

kept her running back and forth between two things... 

Her family traumas and her lack of accepting herself 

for who and what she truly was. 

And so this is  how she had attracted him.. 

Her Plutonic Twin Flame...

Pluto was the master of transformation through stress, struggle, 

and deep knowingness. 

However, being the warrior that she was in her past life,

this battle that ended up playing out before her for 3 years,

 was nothing she knew she couldn't handle.. 

But this time she wanted to win. 

And to win, she knew that it

could only be done through surrender. 

Surrender of her Pride, fears, and ego.

And when she finally learned and realized how to do exactly that, 

she finally saw before her what was really being reflected. 

Her masculine self. 

Her masculine energy in the physical form... 

And it all finally made sense to her. 

Why her relationships never worked. 

Her mission was to be successful at relating in relationships...

Especially with her twin flame... 

But the reason she could never make it happen was the shocker. 

She couldn't see it for the longest time because she never 

wanted to see herself... 

She only looked out there at others. 

It was her addiction. 

To focus on fixing others.. 

Fixing the world...

But never to fix herself. 

Her shadows.

Her trauma.

Her wounds.

Her energy.

 

She realized that her basic trust was faulty...

and because of that, all her other energetics simply followed suit. 

Leading her down a deep dark troubled spiral of despair!

The fact that as a child she shut herself down from who she truly was.

Meant that she wasn't aware of her true identity.

And she went around this earth playing many different roles.

But none of them were ever real. 

True. 

Authentic. 

Because neither was she. 

She was false. 

Fake.

A liar to her own self.

A cheater of her own truth.

A thief of her own hearts truest desires. 

All because she wanted to be loved by those whom she deemed most important.

More important then her own Self. 

Who God had created her to be. 

But because she wanted to achieve acceptance and love

 from others for her worth, 

she had to shut down the spiritual part of herself. 

The feminine energy.

She only allowed her masculine side to grow.

But without the feminine... Her masculine could only grow

with validations.

Over giving.

Manipulations.

Codependency...

And just about any form of narcissism... 

And so here she was today... 

Looking at this sudden but incredible revelation of herself. 

She had been using only her masculine energy her whole life,

 and so it was no wonder that every man she ever met, 

did nothing but fight with her... 

Masculine energy needed a feminine energy in order to grow

and reproduce. 

And here she was...

 only using her masculine energy to be in a world 

that praised her for it, 

yet... 

This praise never gave her what she truly came here for.

Her life partner.