A Second Chance

 June 14th of 2022 was the day Mars was conjunct Chiron at 16 degrees, 

and this for her was a huge day of revelation... 

Only at that time she couldn't see it. 

She was still living through the experience and so therefore could 

not see it playing out.

She wanted to be an actor all her life and little did she know, 

here she was actually doing it and not even aware of it. 

It was Sunday April 30th 2023... 

Only one day away from the huge astrological event of Pluto taking 

a turn for the worse.. Or how most people liked to call it, 

The Retrograde. 

 But to her, the more important aspect was Mars squaring Chiron 

just this passed Thursday, for it was the wrapping up of what she 

was supposed to have learned back in June of last year!

She wasn't even aware of it when it had happened though, 

until just yesterday. 

It all took place that night, 

when she was talking to her mother on the phone... 

That's when the ugly truth had finally reared it's massive head!

Her Chiron wound revolved around Neglect. 

And with the neglect taking place in her Identity house but 

then transitioning into the self worth and self confidence aspect... 

She finally saw where she needed to wake up.

The conversation was no different then any other's she had 

experienced with her mother but for some reason this time

struck her different. 

As she continued to allow her mother's cold words to reverberate

against her helpless inner being... she finally realized it was one too many.

It finally reached the point for her, where it was either her, or her mother.

And she knew the choice she needed to finally man up to. 

As masculine as she was... To man up to this type of strength.. 

required her feminine energy to take the lead. 

And it did. 

It caught her off guard how her feminine essence just spoke

so clearly, so directly, but also so kindly... 

Yet with intent. 

And that was the end of a life long struggle that kept her

going round and round for what seemed way too long! 

That same day... 

She also cut off communications with her plutonic twin flame. 

Even though they had been apart for 7 months... 

She was still allowing him to live rent free in her mind. 

And this too was something that she finally realized was not 

healthy for her. 

Hanging on to abuse for this long had only guaranteed the repeat of it.

And she didn't want that anymore. 

She was ready for a new life. 

One of truth.

First with herself. 

Then with another.