The Dirty Key Ring

 In 2 days, 

Pluto,

 the Lord of the underworld... was going to 

go retrograde. She was already feeling the pull of the energetics going 

back down into her psyche. 

All that she still hadn't released, was now being ripped up

and out of her. 

She didn't want to hold onto it and fight it. 

She wanted to let go and release all that wanted out... 

But the chains she cast on them were made of metal...

and she knew that if she didn't unlock the chains first, they would get 

yanked apart regardless, only this way, leaving quite the hefty bruises 

in it's place. 

She really wished she could find the hidden key she buried...

She remembered being a young child... 

She was in her grandmother's vegetable garden... And she 

was biting all the hot peppers she could find,

 but to no avail

did any of them satisfy her taste buds.

She was looking for something... Or was she looking for pain?

Was this when she had been wounded deeply but instead

decided to chain herself?

Was perhaps the key she seeked, hidden beneath the surface

of the lies she allowed herself to believe?

The lie that she needed pain in order to feel loved?

And there it was. 

Her freedom. 

It was today, the day she finally allowed herself to uncover 

the lie she buried a long time ago. 

That lie that she needed to hurt herself in order to be loved.

This was not the truth of what she truly believed about life.

About relationships. 

She came here with a truth and she chose to bury it in order 

to chain herself to a lie of pain, guilt, and shame. 

"No more", she said to herself. 

And she unlocked the chain

 so Pluto could take back 

what no longer served her best interest... 

And she was now ready to allow for the real truth to emerge

in due time.