Hydrants & Crossroads

 She was back in her part of the world,

Where she felt the most safe and comfortable... 

And she sat in the gas station café contemplating the up coming

Grand Cardinal Cross, which revolved around 

everyone's true soul's identity.

Back in April, there was a reworking of the Grand Fixed Cross 

and Now in July, the Grand Cardinal Cross would ignite the truth

that was hidden beneath the false beliefs that had just been uprooted. 

Pluto was going to play a huge role once again in the decisions 

made or decisions not made... And so she had to really go back and see 

where she stood at her crossroad... 

Back in April, her security in who God had made her along with

the way she prioritized her passions and creative energies

was being brought up to her, front and center. 

How she either chose to move them forward into the collective

or not, was all up to her. 

And Pluto knew this is where she would always give away her power. 

Especially to her relationships and the expectations of society 

and others. 

Back in April, when she had her accident and lost her car, job, and home... 

She realized that it had all come to fruition because of what she chose to 

put all her attention and validations into. 

It definitely wasn't God and who he made her. 

It was in the material things. 

Her fears. 

Her relationships.

External Validations and acceptance. 

And this is what lead her to the collision at the intersection.

The crossroad of the fixed Grand cross! 

So here she was today.. 

Looking over her chart. 

Her Grand Cardinal Cross was all about her true identity 

and how she chose to express and communicate herself

in partnerships, relationships, and to the collective. 

Was she going to work on who she came here to be? 

Was she moving herself in alignment with her true authentic self?

Was she working on her North Node and evolving her energy?

But this is where she had come to a sudden halt. 

When she had her car accident back in April during 

the Grand Fixed Cross...  She was living her independent life...

She had her own place. 

A car.

And a job.

However... 

She was still communicating with her Plutonic Twin Flame. 

He was cutting at her every chance he got. 

Her self esteem was slowly taking hits left and right...

Not just from him, but from her family as well. 

She found herself always defending her beliefs and ideas 

every time she allowed herself to talk to them. 

But maybe this is where she needed to build up a boundaries. 

Maybe this is where Pluto was asking her to own her truth. 

And to realize that God was her security. 

God was her protector.

God was her true worth. 

And this way, if anyone didn't match up to the treatment that 

she valued in her relationship with God, only gave her more guidance 

on which direction to go. 

And what to put priority over. 

And so this is where she saw herself standing again at another

crossroad... 

And then she felt a revelation flow through her.. 

The heaviness just lifted and she allowed it to go... 

Underneath it all was a sense of surrender. 

A surrender to the flow and what was going to unfold on it's own.

This time all she had to do was trust that God was her everything.

And surrender to his Flow through all that she felt in her

Feelings, 

Emotions,

Passions,

and 

Desires...

But she still had the lingering fear in the back of her mind... 

What would happen at this Grand Cardinal Cross-road? 

Would she screw it up as always? 

Would she need an A$$ Kicking from Pluto Again? 

She really hoped not cuz she knew Pluto didn't play... 

He always won.