Hooked On You

 It was only a few days after the New Moon in Taurus

yet 

already 

she realized that themes around 

Love, Self Love, Values, and Order 

were all under a giant sized Magnifying glass. 

Saturn seemed to be checking in twice to see if 

she had learned a thing or two. 

Especially around how she was going to create 

her next chapter in the Book of Life. 

Men seemed to have been flocking to her lately,

and she figured it was because she was doing 

a lot of her healing work. 

However, when she kept attracting clowns and jokers,

she wondered if she was still a part of the circus..

.

Or could it be that since she was graduating out of clown school,

the real clowns didn't want to see her go

and so they buckled down in order 

to barricade her from an easy escape. 

She sat back, thought for a moment, 

then came to the conclusion that if she was still 

attracting clowns in crowns, 

then it could only mean one thing. 

This was her Final exam! 

If she handled the clowns properly, 

according to her own Venus Values, 

she would finally set herself free. 

And Evolve!

All she had to do though, 

was activate her voice. 

Which for her, 

was never an easy task. 

Especially growing up with two very loud 

disagreeable parents!

However, ever since the Taurus New Moon, 

she was getting chance after chance to use 

her voice box. 

Most of times, she did it rather quickly 

and repulsively, with a quick, 

"Ew! Get a way!" 

Other days, 

like today,

she ended up holding in her annoyance 

until she finally blew her lid. 

This dude she had just met at the 

nearby neighborhood grocery store, 

asked for her number, then immediately began 

texting her with the term, 

"Love." 

"Hi Love", he would write. 

She cringed. 

On so many levels, she realized he was just 

so wrong. 

She counted the ways;

 She knew very well that 

#1. Love was an inside job

And for him to pin it on her as a label,

 made her very well aware 

of the fact that he looked to women to please him

rather then to his own Venus feminine energy. 

Then she also saw that 

#2. The minute he labeled her as Love,

he then immediately made sure to make her 

feel like a hooker by telling her to meet him

at his house. 

That right there showed her that he was a manipulative

brain washing type of clown.

Then 

#3.  The minute she called him out on it, 

He immediately tried to gaslight her

saying he never said such a thing. 

But it was right there in plain sight. 

So on the count of 3 strikes, 

this clown was out! 

The most interesting part though, for her,

was that he was from Peru. 

What was it with all these Peruvians? 

Did her Plutonic Ex plant some sort of seed inside her

that kept attracting the same types?

And that's where the Ah Ha Moment Hit!

An Entity!

Stuck right there between her 

Masculine Venus in Libra

and her Masculine Mars in Aries

wanting to connect to her

 Feminine Venus and Feminine Mars 

It was time to bring herself back. 

And finally kick out this Entity 

by healing her fears of relating once and for all. 

Because she was worth it. 

And she deserved it.