Me First Me First!

 As she struggled to get motivation to 

write in her blogs again, 

she wondered what was really happening in her.

Was she finally realizing that being an 

open book, 

was actually not such a good idea? 

or

Was she having a battle within her

about the truth of what she really truly loved?

Something was off. 

Way off. 

But then she remembered that Pluto had

gone retrograde and so her power for 

sharing herself externally had also 

taken a turn and 

re-entered the building.

Her Building. 

Her House. 

Her Body.

Her Home. 

However, she wondered, if Pluto was inside 

her house, then why wasn't she 

feeling motivated?

Could it be that her motivation to write 

was never connected to her heart?

Could her stories have been all about

Vanity!

She figured, she wasn't going to make a 

quick judgment about herself as of yet, 

especially since Pluto had gone retrograde 

just last week. 

Meanwhile,

as she adjusted to this new 

drained feeling, 

she wondered, what exactly was the cause of 

the draining in the first place? 

Was she waiting for external things to fill her up? 

That was actually a huge possibility.

She realized as she looked over her daily routines,

that she was always doing things that could lead 

to money, rather then doing things that 

brought her joy. 

Is this where she was hinged to a wrong idea?

Because it was not that she couldn't or shouldn't 

do the things that would bring in money, 

however, 

it was the order in which she 

chose to attend to them.

 

This is where her abundance was blocked!

By her!

Choosing to go do her gifts when there was

no actual joy within her from doing that which 

would fill her up first!

Wow!

What a tricky situation!

But she finally saw the truth of it. 

Rather then blame and give up anything

and everything... 

What she really needed to focus on

was where she put her energy first. 

Then the rest would just flow. 

Talk about a revelation!

Live 

and 

Let Live...

Was not just the motto for her 

to live her life and then let others live theirs as well. 

But it was also referring to her 

allowing herself to live in joy first 

in order to let her joy flow over and attract 

what she needed in order to live.