Contradiction Creation

She awoke this morning to a guy coming towards her. 

She looked at her phone and saw that it was 

still only 5am. 

She asked real quick, "Are you the Maintenance guy?"

He responded back what sounded like a 

yes with a foreign accent. 

But then she glanced down at his feet rapidly 

approaching her in her sleeping bag and 

she saw that he didn't have any shoes on. 

This was definitely not the maintenance man!

Once he was close enough, he sat down next to her

and started edging really close, trying to 

reach out to her. 

Feeling her space being completely invaded, 

she immediately halted his advances by saying directly, 

"Hey dude! No! I'm not a prostitute!"

She searched her half asleep brain for the 

Spanish equivalent for "Don't touch me,"

and she twisted it up a bit 

but then used the phrase regardless. 

The dude looked at her shocked. 

He pulled out his wallet and tried to hand her 

a $100 dollar bill. 

She noticed his pant zipper was down. 

No socks? 

Zipper Down?

Where the heck did this rapist pop out of? 

She quickly rejected his money and told him 

"Get out now! Or I'll call the Police!" 

"You will be deported" she added!

He got up and quickly ran out the door!

She got up, all angry and annoyed... 

Rolled up her sleeping back and cursed the guy 

for taking away her peaceful morning. 

Then she sat in the corner of the room and ate her 

morning Cherry pie for breakfast. 

Then she went off to her usual place to meditate 

over the entire situation with Holy Spirit.

Holy Spirit tried to put the energetic attraction 

together for her so she could see where she was manifesting

such fearful ideas. 

He mentioned to her that the guy before, whom she didn't 

like, yet she had continued to go against her own 

Venus values in order to get beers from, 

put the idea in her mind through one of the stories he 

concocted to lure her in.

She sensed this because when she asked him to

 elaborate on it, 'he wasn't comfortable'

was his response. 

Then why bring it up? was her thought. 

But now she saw it. 

It was him preying on her emotions and security. 

And in this way, she would have to run to him for 

saving. 

She wasn't falling for it. 

The other thing Holy Spirit had mentioned was 

the way she was chasing people who didn't 

treat her right. 

It's almost as though she was a rapist herself. 

But not of sexual body domination and control. 

But rather, an entering into other peoples' facebook pages

and clicking like on things even when they had told

her not to. 

She was not listening to their boundaries. 

She was crossing them. 

Then claiming it was because she was in love. 

But that was not Love.

She was being disobedient,

not only with other people, but also with her Venus Values. 

And so this was the only way for her to wake up!

To really see and feel what she was doing to others. 

It definitely did not feel good. 

She admitted that much. 

And she made her choice to keep her peace. 

 Only, in order to have that, 

she had to be that. 

No more being a Walking Contradiction!