Fight No Fight

-Unpublished post from October 27th, 2024-

As she sat there in her piece of shit chair,

which she was grateful for,

she counted on her fingers all the months

that had passed since she had last fornicated...

Twelve. 

It was a total of 12 months since she last 

had any soul connection to another without 

God's consent.

Was it really One Year!?

Wow! She thought... 

She was finally free of the last soul-tie that 

had warped and twisted her mind ever so badly.

She was a brand new woman.

A smarter, wiser, more wisdom filled woman!

How great of an achievement was that!

However, something truly needed to be said.

She knew that much. 

And so she was going to say it. 

She was never not a smart woman. 

Maybe a little uneducated in the area of reality. 

But she was definitely not uneducated from the societal norm.

But then there it was. 

The truth.

Plain as day. 

Societal norms were not smart enough for the 

dexterity of life's true realities. 

The traumas of  people were setting the tone for 

a really twisted existence. 

And she realized that she had come to this earth

just to experience it all and uncover the 

hidden truth there of. 

And that is exactly what she did with her last 

toxic situation-ship.

She had jumped into the rabbit hole. 

And there she had met the wicked Queen of Hearts.

And she had fought for her life, 

so hard that she completely drained herself

of self esteem and self love. 

In her darkest hours, she had come to a truth.

She was never to fight. 

If she was Love, 

fighting had no place in her heart of hearts. 

The Queen of Hearts had fooled her to believe 

that there was such a thing as inferiority. 

Yet, this was never really true. 

It was only an illusion. 

And it was only true if she believed in it. 

So one day, 

while she was lying in her death bed,

she decided to stop believing in it. 

And that day, she awoke to a new life. 

A new existence. 

One in which she became her own sovereign authority. 

And the only person whom she would see herself matched with

was Holy Spirit. 

And together, they were the necessary energy to 

overcome any fears. 

It was an inside job. 

Always. 

Never an external battle.