Come in!

As she began to see the truth of who she really was,

there was only one thing left that seemed to 

hinder her flow;

her Plutonic Ex. 

Plutonic because they had Pluto Square the Sun.

The sun being the creation Starter energy, 

was actually the one energy that created anything; 

Flowing or Fenced,

Smooth Sailing or Stuck,

and just basically 

Life or Death 

 situations for her and for him. 

But she was only focusing on her for right now. 

Or was she? 

This is what got her twisted. 

She couldn't for the life of her figure out why she 

couldn't just straight up let him go completely. 

It's not like he was a good boyfriend to her. 

He was very insecure. 

And he was an accuser. 

He didn't communicate, 

He didn't listen.

He blamed. 

He labeled.

He assumed.

Sure, he would carry the heavy groceries and items

to prove his manhood, 

but when it came to relating and sharing with another, 

he couldn't for the life of himself ever dare to 

trust her. 

But then again, 

she realized that with him, she had become a mother figure. 

Which she covered up for herself as being 

a teacher to some one who wasn't 'in the know'. 

But this betrayal to herself, only made the attachment

that much worse. 

Now all of a sudden she fooled herself into believing 

that without her, 

He would perish. 

But that was so not the case. 

Instead, without her tending to her own wellbeing, 

she was the one who would perish. 

Just as she had done in her past life. 

Possibly...

As she sat in front of the computer trying to un-cloud

her third eye, 

she realized she needed Holy Spirit in order to 

actually clear the run way. 

Holy Spirit chimed in gladly and helped her 

to slow down her mind which seemed to have 

run off with Mars and Jupiter. 

The two of them came back in and realized that the

 Fear (Pluto)

in both her chart and her Plutonic Ex's chart was 

indeed tied to fire and air energy. 

And they both had fears around external interactions. 

For her it was tied to a matter of speaking 

her truth only to be harmed for it by a superior.

And for him it was it was tied to an interaction in an adventure

that he was told something which seemed true 

but not really to him because if he would have put himself first, 

it would prove false. 

Yet... 

For both of them, 

what seemed to be true, was that they both had Moons

in collective signs. 

Meaning, they both had an issue with the feeling

that got trapped in their body after the external 

entanglement of energies. 

But because they were both dependent children at the 

time, they both sold out their truth in order to be 

accepted. 

Or what they believed at the time felt like acceptance. 

However... 

They both grew up learning escape and coping

 mechanisms, which for the longest time, seemed like it was 

the only way. 

Until Now.

This moment here now, known as 

The Present. 

No matter how much time or space or distance 

had fallen between them... 

Neither one of them could ever truly just 'let go'. 

Even her... 

With Holy Spirit leading her.. 

She would struggle to listen. 

And then she told herself, 

ok, I'm going to listen now. 

And she heard it. 

"He is External Spirit

and

Just because he had a similar experience or energy, 

does not make him more important than you.

You need to choose you this time."

And that's exactly when she saw the image of her father. 

Not listening to her. 

Hitting her for something she never did. 

Abandoning her while she was in shock, hurt, and crying. 

But then there it was!

Shock! 

Uranus was Shock and Neptune was Surprise!

She had never processed her shock and Surprise with 

Holy Spirit that day and instead she turned to an old 'friend'...

The friend in the shadow... 

Hekate. 

She knew Hekate from her past life. 

But she had forgot where Hekate had left her.

Until now. 

And so it was time for her to make 

her next strategic move...

But this time, she was going to go with

Her true Venus values rather then

Her fear create ones with 

 Ceres, Athena, Vesta and Juno.