Time to just Be

 Time was flying by like a paper airplane set into motion. 

Until it hit the ground of course. 

However, time never seemed to land. 

But should it ever really?

She was beginning to see that time was a flow, 

and to believe it to be a determining factor was 

actually a very huge false belief. 

Like waiting for a future accomplishment 

to receive recognition and bring about a reward. 

Biggest illusion ever. 

What about all the time "in between"? 

What happened there?

Did time stop? 

No it kept going, and so for her, this revelation

was a rather masterful one. 

She learned finally to live in the now moments. 

To really enjoy all the time before her and to make 

the most of them. 

She was no longer waiting for responses. 

No longer waiting for call backs. 

and

No longer waiting for the right man. 

She realized everything was being created by her 

as she made choices on a daily basis. 

However, the one thing she also had to learn though, 

was to feel her bodily triggers as she was moving about 

her days. 

Why?

Because without acknowledging her bodily triggers, 

her mind was always reverting back to doing things

the way it believed it to be. 

But Believing was not always hinged to truths. 

Especially her truths. 

Her mind grew up listening to external people's truths. 

And when external truths didn't align with her bodily truths, 

this is where her mind would let go the hand of her owns values, 

 and run off... 

Runaway... 

With an external idea... External spirit...

Which in the end, 

always proved to fail her. 

Once Upon A Time... 

She had believed a married man

would leave his wife and two sons

just to be with her; 

All because he was cheating himself, 

his wife, 

and even her. 

Once Upon An Even Closer Time...

She had believed that she could turn an insecure boy

into an emotionally mature man;

All under the masculine energy of control and command.

The Plot Twist in all of this came,

when she realized that love 

wasn't a wish born of Lust...

Rather, 

True Love had always existed deep within 

her own heart.

It was just up to her to go to it 

and open the door. 

That is exactly what 

Uranus in Taurus opposition Mercury in Scorpio

had finally been able to reveal to her.

 And thus, all that was thought, said, and done, 

was now finally 

really 

DONE.