Bread Crumby Attitude

She asked him, 

"Are you a part of a gang?"

To which he pointed to three dots on his left hand. 

A three-dot tattoo on the hand, often arranged in a triangle, most commonly symbolizes "Mi Vida Loca" or "my crazy life," representing a lifestyle on the edge, gang affiliation, or time spent in prison. It can also signify resilience, the past-present-future, or a spiritual trinity, and is sometimes called a "party dot". 

When he had said the words to her ,

 "I'm from Guatamala", 

The word Gang was flashing before her eyes. 

And those 

Three Dots clarified it right up for her. 

How did she always manage to attract the toughest of the bunch?

And then she thought... 

What bunch? 

The third world I only know how to use my fists to 

solve anything bunch?

But then, she did attract them, so she really couldn't say 

she was any better. 

She didn't even want to. 

She never liked to compare herself or anyone else for that 

matter. 

But so back to this gang member. 

What was interesting about him though, was how he came off 

so shy, and so silent. 

So kind, and so generous. 

But then, he also didn't lead. 

Instead, he pulled her right out of her feminine essence 

and left her to make all the decisions. 

All the choices. 

All the plans. 

How was this a gang member? 

Oh... 

Duh.. 

Gangs were followers. 

Not Leaders. 

No wonder he kept doing the trinity walk with her... 

Only with him it wasn't the light side. 

It was the shadow side. 

The light side as she knew it was;

The Father, 

The Son,

and

Holy Spirit. 

However, the shadow side of the so called trinity,

which she was receiving 

from him was more so;

The Father,

Son,

and 

The Black Moon Lilith's Ghost. 

The way she knew was because he had text her,

"I miss you, 

Where are you?

Who are you with?"

As she read over his words, 

something in her stomach twisted. 

The Trinity was all love,

and for him, to say I miss you then immediately string along

Where are you? and Who are you with?

Definitely did not suggestion love, but more so 

 suspicion and assumption. 

She knew there was a shadow lurking behind those words. 

And she wasn't going to even try to 

correct him or change him. 

She had finally learned that people needed to

come as they are

as they were... 

Not as she wanted them to be. 

And so she accepted that this guy was definitely

still way behind on his security lessons. 

And so she blocked him immediately. 

The last thing she needed was a bunch of gang members

putting her in the ground all because 

her "would be boyfriend", wrongly accused

 her because of his insecurities.