The Loneliest Number

 It was one of those days 

Where she wasn't trying to see signs,

Yet many of them just kept 

Popping up in front of her. 

Like the Goose. 

Not geese...

Just one goose. 

Sitting there.

All alone.

Right there.

On the side of the sidewalk.

In the grass, (of course)

Just staring at her riding her bike past.

As with all animals she was first shocked! 

Then composed herself and said a

 "hey there!" Joyfully.

But most of the Joy was actually

Coming from shock and surprise

With a dab of fear,

Cuz yes,

 she feared all of nature's creatures. 

Then later in the day, 

As she sat watching her favorite

T.v. show, 

Three's Company,

A small yet quite larger than

A mosquito, insect came a buzzing up

To her.

He first came and kept humping her headset

Cord. 

Then started humping her back pack. 

Each time,

 she scolded him,

"Go on, get!"

Then, to her surprise, he came back with

Another! 

She couldn't believe it! 

He had brought his lover! 

And that's when it hit her.

Mother nature was trying to tell

Her something major important. 

Nature was pointing it out to her that

She needed to stop being alone. 

She needed another. 

Yet. 

Here she sat...

All alone. 

Watching Three's Company 

Something was off...

But what was she to do? 

And that's when a drop of rain landed

On her left arm. 

Venus. 

Where was her Venus connection? 

Was she able to reconnect to it? 

After all the trauma and disconnect?

Was she ever going to be able to reconnect

To her vision and values in order

To finally attract

A match? 

And even if she could, 

would she actually be able to follow through? 

Why was life so hard? 

Was it even worth tying? 

If only she had any energy left to find out. 

Military Trail

The Solar Eclipse in Leo had dropped her off here, 

at the station.

The Pisces Lunar Eclipse Station. 

All the baggage she had brought aboard was 

now being told she can no longer take them with her. 

It was time to move on without them. 

But what was she leaving behind?

She came empty handed. 

The only thing she could think of that needed 

letting go was all the shadows she had 

held onto since childhood.

Teen-hood..

Adolescent-hood.

These shadows had followed her all her life. 

They had become the very friends she turned to.

They attracted to her similar, familiar situations

that she could repeat over and over again 

for comfort. 

They were like her big bowl of Ramen. 

Hot, Spicy, Fishy, and Fake!  

The life they kept attracting to her was always one

of combat and wits. 

Who was going to prove more fabulous?

Until Now.

With the Pisces Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, Neptune was coming

in strong, along with his friends, Pluto and Uranus. 

Together, this Trio was revealing all kinds of tactics

and escape modalities that

she was using and never really even saw where 

she reproduced  it from. 

Rather than creating, from who she was, inside out. 

She had been walking backwards the whole time.

She kept going through the revolving door expecting 

to actually get into the building of life. 

But this revolving door only led her to the same place twice.

As if it was all on repeat. 

Time and time again.

So she stopped. 

Finally. 

And during the Eclipse, she was going to just be still.

And she would allow for all that was never 

right... 

to turn left.

And all that was always left...

Would be right. 

And from there, she would allow for 

Holy Spirit to finally be her one and only true guide. 

Because in order for her to create, 

that was the only way forward.

Uno Mas

She was sitting on the bench with her buds, when he came up. 

 

Now, the story behind him was this. 

A couple of nights ago, he had done something that disgusted her so much, that she was done day dreaming of him.

Then to top it off, the day after, he had cemented it with his actions towards her. 

What actions? 

He simply said Hi to his friends, but completely avoided her. 

 

She knew this game. 

Make her feel low, so he can seem bigger later. 

So she was well aware today. 

Today when he showed up again. 

He fist bumped Aries first..

Then came to her. 

Fist in the air...

 

She asked seriously,

"Are you sure?" 

 

He replied almost instantly with "yeah of course? Why?"

And that's when she looked him in the eyes and said the truth... 

"Because you ignored me the other day and gave me the evil eye as you walked by..."

He tried real hard to deny it. 

But she knew what she saw.

 

He wasn't off the hook that easily. 

Not with her. 

She said okay, but he knew what she meant..

'Prove it.'

So the rest of the night, he scrambled for a moment where he could in fact...

Prove it.

 

 

And that's when it presented itself. 

The moment where he could be...

'The man.'

And so it went. 

When the guy who had threatened his friend showed up again, he took the stand! 

All because she had said... 

"Can you believe he pulled a knife on him?" 

 

She knew energy. 

He was trying hard to play the hero..

But was it for her? 

Or was it for his Ego? 

Cuz of course, he had his girlfriend at his side by the time the opportunity to prove himself presented itself.

 

So she was, of course, left to feel confused. 

Which is exactly why she played her cards to reflect his. 

 

She told him to be careful,

 

because her last boyfriend was deported for being just as tough as he was trying to prove himself to be.

Same Place Different Worlds

After the New Moon Solar Eclipse, 

she was a new girl.

 

Something awoke in her that finally 

revealed an amazing truth. 

Astronomy and Astrology  

were

 two 

totally

 different 

things, 

that really need 

not ever be brought together! 

When brought together, all they did was 

cast upon the free world a ton of 

limitations, 

but it also cast quite the spell over anyone who dared 

to dabble in it. 

She realized exactly that, 

when she had happened upon 

astrology.

That it had come from a never ending 

battle between her parents over 

something called a Horoscope...

To her it was more of a Horror Scope then what it 

tried to pretend itself to be. 

Her parents would fight over a prediction 

told by a supposedly psychic person. 

What made it even worse though, 

is they would believe this external person 

over their own Holy Spirit! 

And then that's where she realized... 

They weren't connected to their Holy Spirits. 

Cuz if they were, they never would have 

fallen for such a silly little invention

such as the horoscope. 

Thus, today, she realized that all her own wisdoms, 

were not coming from Holy Spirit completely

either. 

She too had been fooled to believe

that the zodiac signs 

were a real thing and she ran with it from day two. 

Until one day 

when she was finally back with Holy Spirit. 

and he pointed it out to her during one of her shadow readings. 

In the cards, 

it kept telling her to let it all go. 

All that she learned growing up... 

But it wasn't until the Solar Eclipse, that she finally 

put two and two together. 

The stars were real. 

The constellations, were just drawings. 

Someone else's ideas.

An external spirit!  

And so now it all made sense!

Why she was stuck!

Repeating old patterns and not being able to evolve beyond it!

Purgatory one would call it. 

And others might say, 

the Labyrinth

She knew just from the sound of it that 

it was all off. 

Way off. 

The real truth...

Looked like this...

Everything else was what someone else created

in order to control an entire world. 

But it was time for it all to come to an end. 

She knew that much.