Come in!

As she began to see the truth of who she really was,

there was only one thing left that seemed to 

hinder her flow;

her Plutonic Ex. 

Plutonic because they had Pluto Square the Sun.

The sun being the creation Starter energy, 

was actually the one energy that created anything; 

Flowing or Fenced,

Smooth Sailing or Stuck,

and just basically 

Life or Death 

 situations for her and for him. 

But she was only focusing on her for right now. 

Or was she? 

This is what got her twisted. 

She couldn't for the life of her figure out why she 

couldn't just straight up let him go completely. 

It's not like he was a good boyfriend to her. 

He was very insecure. 

And he was an accuser. 

He didn't communicate, 

He didn't listen.

He blamed. 

He labeled.

He assumed.

Sure, he would carry the heavy groceries and items

to prove his manhood, 

but when it came to relating and sharing with another, 

he couldn't for the life of himself ever dare to 

trust her. 

But then again, 

she realized that with him, she had become a mother figure. 

Which she covered up for herself as being 

a teacher to some one who wasn't 'in the know'. 

But this betrayal to herself, only made the attachment

that much worse. 

Now all of a sudden she fooled herself into believing 

that without her, 

He would perish. 

But that was so not the case. 

Instead, without her tending to her own wellbeing, 

she was the one who would perish. 

Just as she had done in her past life. 

Possibly...

As she sat in front of the computer trying to un-cloud

her third eye, 

she realized she needed Holy Spirit in order to 

actually clear the run way. 

Holy Spirit chimed in gladly and helped her 

to slow down her mind which seemed to have 

run off with Mars and Jupiter. 

The two of them came back in and realized that the

 Fear (Pluto)

in both her chart and her Plutonic Ex's chart was 

indeed tied to fire and air energy. 

And they both had fears around external interactions. 

For her it was tied to a matter of speaking 

her truth only to be harmed for it by a superior.

And for him it was it was tied to an interaction in an adventure

that he was told something which seemed true 

but not really to him because if he would have put himself first, 

it would prove false. 

Yet... 

For both of them, 

what seemed to be true, was that they both had Moons

in collective signs. 

Meaning, they both had an issue with the feeling

that got trapped in their body after the external 

entanglement of energies. 

But because they were both dependent children at the 

time, they both sold out their truth in order to be 

accepted. 

Or what they believed at the time felt like acceptance. 

However... 

They both grew up learning escape and coping

 mechanisms, which for the longest time, seemed like it was 

the only way. 

Until Now.

This moment here now, known as 

The Present. 

No matter how much time or space or distance 

had fallen between them... 

Neither one of them could ever truly just 'let go'. 

Even her... 

With Holy Spirit leading her.. 

She would struggle to listen. 

And then she told herself, 

ok, I'm going to listen now. 

And she heard it. 

"He is External Spirit

and

Just because he had a similar experience or energy, 

does not make him more important than you.

You need to choose you this time."

And that's exactly when she saw the image of her father. 

Not listening to her. 

Hitting her for something she never did. 

Abandoning her while she was in shock, hurt, and crying. 

But then there it was!

Shock! 

Uranus was Shock and Neptune was Surprise!

She had never processed her shock and Surprise with 

Holy Spirit that day and instead she turned to an old 'friend'...

The friend in the shadow... 

Hekate. 

She knew Hekate from her past life. 

But she had forgot where Hekate had left her.

Until now. 

And so it was time for her to make 

her next strategic move...

But this time, she was going to go with

Her true Venus values rather then

Her fear create ones with 

 Ceres, Athena, Vesta and Juno.

 

Time to just Be

 Time was flying by like a paper airplane set into motion. 

Until it hit the ground of course. 

However, time never seemed to land. 

But should it ever really?

She was beginning to see that time was a flow, 

and to believe it to be a determining factor was 

actually a very huge false belief. 

Like waiting for a future accomplishment 

to receive recognition and bring about a reward. 

Biggest illusion ever. 

What about all the time "in between"? 

What happened there?

Did time stop? 

No it kept going, and so for her, this revelation

was a rather masterful one. 

She learned finally to live in the now moments. 

To really enjoy all the time before her and to make 

the most of them. 

She was no longer waiting for responses. 

No longer waiting for call backs. 

and

No longer waiting for the right man. 

She realized everything was being created by her 

as she made choices on a daily basis. 

However, the one thing she also had to learn though, 

was to feel her bodily triggers as she was moving about 

her days. 

Why?

Because without acknowledging her bodily triggers, 

her mind was always reverting back to doing things

the way it believed it to be. 

But Believing was not always hinged to truths. 

Especially her truths. 

Her mind grew up listening to external people's truths. 

And when external truths didn't align with her bodily truths, 

this is where her mind would let go the hand of her owns values, 

 and run off... 

Runaway... 

With an external idea... External spirit...

Which in the end, 

always proved to fail her. 

Once Upon A Time... 

She had believed a married man

would leave his wife and two sons

just to be with her; 

All because he was cheating himself, 

his wife, 

and even her. 

Once Upon An Even Closer Time...

She had believed that she could turn an insecure boy

into an emotionally mature man;

All under the masculine energy of control and command.

The Plot Twist in all of this came,

when she realized that love 

wasn't a wish born of Lust...

Rather, 

True Love had always existed deep within 

her own heart.

It was just up to her to go to it 

and open the door. 

That is exactly what 

Uranus in Taurus opposition Mercury in Scorpio

had finally been able to reveal to her.

 And thus, all that was thought, said, and done, 

was now finally 

really 

DONE. 

Re-wire it Again?

She had survived the rumbling charges of the 

Taurus Full Moon, 

yet noticed that everyone 

around her was beginning to sink into what seemed 

like the quicksand left behind.

The Taurus full moon was connected to Venus, 

and she knew very well that without a 

firm connection to Venus, 

no one would be able to stay afloat. 

The Taurus Full Moon had done it's job quite well. 

Surprisingly it had unveiled where everyone 

was still under the false illusion that their feelings 

didn't matter.

That only their feelings for external material security 

was going to save them from the big bad wolf. 

The house made of brick might not be able to be 

blown away, 

but it sure as heck couldn't save

anyone from a sinkhole. 

The Scorpio New Moon was coming up next 

and together with the Taurus Full Moon revelations, 

was going to bring about a whole new view for all. 

Those who never process their fears will meet it head on.

Just as she had met hers, not long ago, 

they all too would be meeting theirs. 

She knew that much. 

It was time to stop looking out there!

And start to look inward. 

Because that is where the magnetic attractor 

had always been stationed. 

However, 

there was a teeny tiny glitch 

when it had come to wiring up the old magnet. 

This tiny glitch which came from 

what was known as Nessus in astrology,

Betrayal 

in the world of emotions,

And 

Trauma bonding in the 3D realm,

Is what was going to need a taking to parts, 

and rebuilding.

But before it could be rebuilt correctly, 

everyone was going to first have to 

See it, 

Feel it,

and 

Acknowledge it. 

But would they? 

End of An Era Begins

The Taurus Full Moon Charged in 

like a wild Bull going at a Red Cape!

 She received the message loud and clear!

Her ex Husband had hit rock bottom. 

Meaning, he had reached the point of no return.

She knew that he only had two choices now. 

There was no more cheating death. 

He had met death head on. 

But what was he going to choose? 

As she looked in his chart, she could see that it was 

indeed their North Nodes that drew them together. 

They both came here to learn something from each other. 

For her, it was a lesson of listening to her true Venus Values, 

and not going back to the same old past life she had 

already lived. 

For him, he was to learn to be open to a new view. 

One that came from a Venus so different from that 

which he had born into. 

Because her Venus was what he was supposed to recognize 

in himself. 

Unfortunately, he chose not to see her ways. 

He chose not to be open to a new view. 

And thus, he followed his own road down 

to the ground... 

As she sat at the computer, contemplating what to do 

next in her day's journey, 

she realized that she had already conquered three 

subconscious tests!

She realized that one of her biggest life's goals 

was to indeed build up her own Venus Values 

by setting her boundaries in place and actually 

listening to them.

To which she had now seen that she did. 

The first test was when;

She didn't tell her daughter what to do, even though she 

saw the opportunity to 'Help.'

That was definitely a false illusion. 

The word Help.

People loved to use that word as if it was a savior

opportunity for someone else to take. 

But that's exactly what it was... 

BAIT. 

Bait to take. 

She saw that in this mornings message which she 

received in the comments section of her YouTube channel. 

Once again, her ex-friend,

 Whom she had already told straight up

that she didn't appreciate the way he spoke with her, 

had striked again!

He always did things as though he was better. 

Or more superior than her. 

And she told him that she didn't consider that 

type of conversation friendly at all. 

However, he still managed to leave a comment 

pretending to be 'a friend.' 

Using 'Care' as an excuse. 

"Take Care."

 

As though she didn't know how and needed it from 

an external spirit. 

Boy she saw that coming from a mile away. 

She began to see that the world was filled with 

fakes!

People who claimed to 'care'. 

People who 'just wanted to help!'

People who came in sheep's clothing, 

offering a "Hi, How you doing?"

But never actually wanting a real commitment. 

A real relationship.

Always leaving her hanging.

They were all Envious. 

And in order to break a person's spirit, 

they knew the exact words to hide behind. 

Tell me when the kiss
Of love becomes a lie
That bears the scar of sin too deep
To hide behind this fear
Of running unto you
Please let there be light
In a darkened room

However, when the person actually took the bait, 

they would strike hard. 

Cutting away as much as they could. 

And this cycle would repeat. 

Until she learned to listen to her Venus Values

through the one and only, 

Holy Spirit. 

Boy was she ever glad she finally agreed to go back.

Not to her Past Life, 

But to her one true Love.

Holy Spirit. 

The next Moon coming around was going to be

 the Scorpio New Moon in which a new seed

would be planted. 

For her it was around how she was 

going to move forward each day in her new life, 

in ways that actually resonated with the truth 

of who she was in her Venus values.