To Be or To Begin Again...

 It was the day of the New moon in Gemini..

And her mind was all over the frickin' place. 

Well, not so much all over the place as it was 

filling up with so much that she wanted to release. 

This was going to be her time to shine. 

She knew she was ready... She just needed that push...

The universe of course, had been pushing her already,

 yet she was still dragging her feet... 

But why?

 She thought about it for a second and came to 

a few reasons within her Gemini mind... 

Doubt.

Fear.

and

Lack of knowledge were just a few to get her started..

However, instead of focusing on all that was holding her back, 

she decided to change directions and put her focus to 

all that she did have control over. 

And that was her now moments. 

As she sat at the computer, typing away at her blog, 

she had become really proud of herself for 

going out and landing a job at first try. 

So she celebrated the win with a glass of beer 

and her favorite music playing on her headset. 

She knew this wasn't going to be the grand win of all... 

But it was definitely enough to satisfy her desire to get 

where she was truly trying to get. 

Small steps. 

Baby steps they called it. 

But at least she was taking steps at all. 

She could have so easily given up. 

She was homeless for 5 days. 

She lived on the streets in a tent... 

As a female, this was definitely not an ideal getaway idea. 

She was lucky to have her team of angels protecting her 

the entire time. 

But she did get a chance to hit rock bottom and was indeed 

able to feel what happened when all was lost. 

And she learned that the one thing that was never lost

 no matter what happened, was the connection to God. 

So she did learn something new. 

And she added it to her bag of wisdom. 

Her next lesson involved rebuilding her life from ground up. 

But what she had also finally learned though was

 that she didn't have to do things the same way that she had been taught. 

She didn't have to believe in the same ideas... 

She could stay open to possibilities!

New opportunities!

But she really needed to tap into her creativity in order 

to activate them. 

And that's exactly what she was doing here. 

She knew her writing was definitely something that 

moved her in mysterious ways. 

And she continued to do it, even when things 

around her were crumbling.