Unbreak my Heart ...

 Music was God's secret savior, aside from Christ, here on this earth!

This was of course her own opinion... magnified...

She was sitting once again in a new place, a new state, a new 

home... 

And as she was writing in her blog, she was listening to her 

80's music...

 They were all so amazing and uplifting.. 

She was singing along with them the best she could. 

It kept her spirits so lifted... She could have swore she was flying!

She was really in good spirits!

This was always her though! 

She remembered... 

She saw her 9 year old self sitting in a room with a small stereo... 

And her favorite beach boys cassette... 

At that time in her life... She only had the

 Beach boys, 

Buddy Holly, 

and

 Def leppard... 

It was her father's tapes... But she loved music.. 

So It really didn't matter what she was hearing.. 

She always found the upbeat eighties so invigorating... 

And it attracted her attention

at a very young age..

Music eventually began to carry her through life... 

She always saw movement in music.. 

She felt music deep with in her core... 

She even taught herself to dance...

But she never seized it... 

Was this a regret? 

She pondered it now that it came up... 

Back to the here and now... 

As she sat in this new territory, new space, new life... 

She had found her comfort... 

However... she was now needing to begin again in all aspects of her life...

And she was just so much of a hanger on, that it really wasn't 

something that came naturally to her. 

So as she was in this new life of hers, she was wondering, 

where to begin again... 

And this is where she figured... this time she was going to do things

differently... 

It wasn't going to be about self destruction... 

Or self sacrifice... 

This time she was going to listen to her heart. 

But for now... 

She knew she couldn't do that... 

Because her heart was broken... 

And so in order to hear her heart again, she was first in charge 

of gluing it back together after being broken... 

So yeah, that was going to take time... 

And so she continued to listen to her music and just 

pretend that all was okay for now... 

And that was the beauty of music to her... 

It was like an ointment to heal all the wounds... 

Including her broken heart.