Over the Under way...

 She was getting the 999 a lot..

And not just a lot, but like 

A LOT! 

Something was done.

Complete.

Over.

Yet, why was she still getting the sign then?

Was there more?

More of the less?

The Gone?

The Finished?

What else could go?

Well, either way, she surrendered.

She knew better then to try to control

anything anymore.

It was all about flow now.

However, 

If she was honest with herself. 

Things really were not flowing. 

Well, on the one hand,

 no..

But on the other hand,

 yes..

She wondered... 

Maybe God had put her where she was,

because he wanted her to end her 

previous thoughts on her old ideas. 

The old ideas which never really resonated 

with who she truly was.

Maybe this time God was giving her the 

Green Light

to do what was truly in her heart. 

She just needed to start on it and keep going at it.

And so.. 

after seeing 999 once more again tonight,

she decided that she was going to stop fighting it.

And she was going to put more effort back into 

all that she knew excited her before.

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With the Aries Full Moon coming up in four days,

she really didn't have much of a choice anyhow. 

She knew the test that which was coming for her.

She knew well enough, all the planets and stars were 

aligning once again to shock and surprise her

 when she least expected it.

Only this time... 

It was going to be up to her to speak her truth.

Would she do it?

Could she?

She really wanted to believe she could...

But today during a pre-test that God sent her way, 

she had failed. 

She knew she did because she felt her anger

within her rise up and yell it at her. 

Why was it so hard for her to speak up when she was 

uncomfortable?

Why couldn't she speak her mind?

What was preventing her from telling guys to 

Not touch her. 

It's not that she didn't mind the occasional hug from a 

boyfriend. 

But not some random dude who just asked her out. 

And no matter how much she squirmed and tried to 

avoid getting too close, she was never really 

able to say,

 "you know what, NO!

Not until I know you better." 

 

Maybe this is what needed to come to a close. 

That 999 she's been seeing a lot!

Maybe it was time she stood up for what she truly felt.

No more feeling like she didn't have a voice.

No more feeling like if she did say no, she would get 

hurt, left, ridiculed.

But also, maybe she needed to end being 

co-dependent. 

It was time she stopped saying yes to guys 

only because she felt like she needed them to help

her move something forward. 

Maybe she needed to stop manipulating 

situations and pretending to be the 

innocent one. 

Maybe it was time for her to let that false idea go!