Come Full Circle

 It was 2:22am and she had just gotten home 

from another Friday Night great Adventure!

After devouring her favorite after the bar snack, 

which of course was a 7-11 taquito dipped in 

Ranch dressing, 

she began responding to the messages she was 

receiving. 

The first message was from the Choker.

Yes, he had found her again. 

~Rewind back to 12am...~

She was dancing the night away up by the stage,

when someone crept up behind her 

and interfered with her groove. 

He leaned in and asked her, 

"Remember me?" 

She didn't even have to look at him, because

she felt his energy again and the dreaded 

images of who he was came rushing back. 

She tried to use her naivety as a mask in hopes 

that he would soften his revenge on her for

ditching his messages and requests to go out. 

It seemed to work for the time being cuz he didn't ask

her why she ditched him. 

He, of course, began this meeting in the same way

 as he had done the last time. 

He looked at her beer and said, oh, you're all out, 

let's get you another one. 

She had only had one at that point so she 

obliged to his evil plan.

She watched as he tried to get the bartender's

attention and then demand her to take his tip,

at which she saw the look of disgust 

on the bartenders face. 

She acknowledged the energy she saw

 of his need for dominance,

and it validated all that which 

she had already known from the last time 

they met. 

Once they had the beers, they began dancing. 

He didn't like dancing on the dance floor

 and so he pulled her towards the wall where 

he leaned up against it and just had her 

dancing in front of him. 

A mad rush of her ex came front and center

in her minds' eye. 

This dude was governed by the same demon. 

The Jealous envious demon. 

The one that couldn't stand a Sigma Woman's light!

She knew this energy very well now, 

and was well aware of their tactics to rob 

her of her light.

As she danced a little more for him, he did his

infamous choke hold again. 

And with that, 

she knew it was time to abandon ship!

She told him she was going to go to the 

little ladies room, then hauled a$$ away

from him!

Once in the bathroom he text her again to meet 

him at the bar when she was done.

She replied with, 

"Let's mingle with others and meet up 

later to dance again."

He took her bait, but something told her

that he wasn't okay with it. 

As she went around to the other side of the bar, 

she stood back watching the people dance and 

a good song came on.

To which of course she began dancing to happily

when right in front of her was a guy who 

waved at her and asked her to come dance 

with him. 

Surprisingly, she smiled and agreed!

So she went over to him and began dancing. 

They danced to two songs and exchanged numbers.

He was a really sweet guy. 

Didn't grab or grope her. 

Definitely didn't choke her.

And when she left him to go to the restroom, 

He had text her asking if she would come back?

Just as she was about to respond, 

The Choker sent a text as well. 

His was more demanding. 

"Where are you?"

To which she responded, 

"At home, I got tired."

And she immediately left the bar, 

and didn't look back. 

Once she got home, she text the nice guy

that she had went home but really enjoyed dancing

with him. 

And he text back his name and that he enjoyed 

the dancing too. 

And so as she reminisced her nightly excursion

and experiences, 

she saw two things reflect before her;

Meeting 'C' back in 2019 and messing it up

because of her fear of not being good enough. 

And then also accepting a jealous narcissist 

all because she couldn't forgive herself

for making a mistake when she believed the lie

that she wasn't good enough for who she was.

Five years later,

It was now time to make the right decision for 

herself.