Never say Goodbye?

Venus had entered Taurus as of yesterday

and the only reason she was 

even remotely aware of it, was because of 

how all those whom she had abandoned 

had now seemed to suddenly reappear

 back into her inbox. 

As sudden as it had appeared, 

she couldn't help but wonder how soon it would 

also disappear. 

Such was her life. 

Everything good that she had land before her, 

would also soon vanish into thin air 

and leave her shocked. 

Abandoned.

Alone. 

and 

in utter grief. 

Leaving her to always 

Wonder why she had to keep repeating

such great tragedy over and over again. 

What was she holding onto so tightly inside her?

What entity kept attracting

the agony of everything good being taken away 

from her? 

"You don't deserve sh! t..."

Those words rang loudly in her mind. 

It was an Echo. 

An echo from afar. 

But this echo kept coming at her from the deep 

dark corners of her shadow side. 

It would get triggered every time she was 

feeling happy and good things were coming to her.

No matter how much she tried to make life work,

this nemesis was like a broken record. 

Oh look, you are enjoying your life, 

let's throw a monkey wrench in your axle. 

Flip! 

Your bike is broke! 

Still riding it?

No problem, BOOM! Flat tire!

Oh you like jewelry making?

You make money from it?

No problem, no one will buy it anymore.

BOOM!

And when you still don't give up, 

Ooplah! Someone will steal it! 

What else can we ruin?

Tell me what else makes you happy.

Cause god forbid life should be a happy one.

Not for you. 

You get to sit here and watch everyone else live.

Meanwhile you will suffer. 

But you can't die. 

Oh no. 

Pain is the name of this game. 

Emotional pain? 

Psychological pain?

Spirit pain?

It didn't matter which one he was, 

all she knew is that

it was time for her to throw this clown out already!

His Evil voice was killing her. 

She no longer wanted him to be in her. 

It was time to cut him out!

But where was he? 

Where was he hiding? 

Was he between the truth of her identity and her believes?

Was he between her true feelings and the light of her joy?

or

Was he between her true inner values and the actions 

she believed she was supposed to take?

She thought a bit longer and came to another hiding spot.

Maybe he was sitting in the part of her body 

that held everything together...

The command center. 

If that were true, then she was in big trouble!

There was going to be no way to remove him. 

Unless he wanted to go. 

And she had to want to let him go kindly. 

There couldn't be a battle. 

Cause that would only feed him 

and make him more reluctant to go. 

What was she to do? 

How would she get this entity to 

say goodbye?