Rat Trap

 Mid July is where time had landed.

Mid July is  where she had stopped herself.

And it was also

Mid July where she had finally realized

How

Why

When

and 

Where

 she was still attracting draining energies!

She had already cut off the Peruvian guy who kept pushing

her for sex, even when she told him 

no. 

She really did not interact with any family members

as of late. 

And 

She had definitely not been interacting with her Plutonic Ex

ever since he told her to stop bugging him.

So who was she still talking to? 

And that's when she saw it. 

She was on the bus, 

On her way to the old school of life, 

when she realized that her 'friend' from the past

was texting her. 

He was just getting out of a relationship and 

had been consulting her for comfort.

She had not even thought twice about the situation 

because she knew she didn't mind him venting. 

She was a Pisces after all, 

and what better ears to chew off then a Pisces, 

whom always loved to lend an ear. 

Or in her case, 

sacrifice an ear or two. 

But this is when it hit her. 

As she was responding to his latest text, 

she realized that she had reframed from giving him 

unsolicited advice, because she had learned that 

she was not here to fix people, but rather 

to empathize with them. 

However, she finally realized the truth. 

It wasn't her. 

She had finally caught the sneaky rat that had been 

chewing a hole in her energetic field. 

This friend who kept buttering her up with words 

of praise was also 

cutting at her self esteem with a pair of scissors that 

were dressed up as nail clippers. 

But he wasn't clipping his nails. 

Instead he was pretending to be preaching lessons he's learned, 

all the while taking huge clips away at her values. 

He lied so much about how he believed in her, 

but when she asked him about her video that he claimed to 

have watched, he couldn't for the life of him 

even begin to tell her what it was about. 

Then when she would bring up topics around

Holy Spirit and emotional processing,

he would make sure to throw all of it under the bus. 

Holy Spirit had finally had enough of him as did she. 

After today's texting with him 

and once again feeling the stabs and jabs of 

this friends hidden motives, 

Holy Spirit told her to cut him off completely. 

This guy was a Fiend, 

Never a friend. 

And even when he would send her money to help out, 

he would send along with it, 

some sort of superior comment just to make sure 

she stayed inferior. 

He was using her current situation to feed 

his ego. 

And she realized as well that every time they talked, 

he would provoke her to explaining herself. 

Then when she did, he would make sure to 

let her drown in it. 

And this was where she finally saw the truth. 

He wanted revenge. 

Revenge for not wanting him back when they first met. 

So she listened to Holy Spirit

and she Blocked him. 

It was time to learn this lesson 

and close the door.