She was really looking forward to removing
the huge unsightly cyst that protruded from her abdomen.
"are you pregnant?" they would ask.
"No!" She would bark back to them!
She was getting so angry with all the people's
joy and glee for her,
only because THEY thought she was going to
be a mother.
No one ever really cared about her truth though.
They only cared about what they wanted of her or from her.
All she wanted to do is
go back to who she really was.
The happy carefree dancer.
The energetic hiker.
The amazed adventurer.
The beautiful sexy blue eyed Goddess.
This wasn't vanity though.
Looking good for other's was.
Doing things to get validation from others was.
But so then...
if the day of her long awaited MRI, had finally arrived,
yet,
somewhere somehow
the computer had said she was never in the system...
What exactly had happened?
Was it just a Mercury Retrograde glitch?
Was she being tested on how badly she believed
in her self?
Or
Was she being saved from a huge life threatening mistake?
Perhaps this is what the Virgo New Moon
was about to teach her.
What was she prioritizing first?
Herself?
Or
was she running on the fear that she was wrong
and that God was out there saving her
by removing her from the system?
Or
Perhaps there was a third option.
One she never thought of after being gas lit for so long.
Until now!
Uranus in Gemini was finally able to get through
to her Mercury.
And this third idea was...
That maybe,
the particular doctor chosen for her by
an unknown physician,
was not a good choice for her.
And that she needed to ask Holy Spirit to guide
her to the right doctor.
She knew she wasn't being addicted to looking good
in order to get validation.
This wasn't a case of Vanity at all.
However,
it also wasn't a crime to love herself
for who she really was and came here to be.
And that's what she was going to take into her own hands
from now on.
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