Garden Fires

 Seven days away, 

was the New Moon in Virgo at 0 degrees. 

Yet, she was already seeing a massive amount

of people trying to use their powers of superiority

over her. 

She roared with laughter inside while only 

bearing a pleasant smile outside. 

Fighting was never her style. 

But giving in was also not an option for her. 

What was her go to mechanism then?

Stoicism. 

And it worked like a charm. 

It kept her at peace at all times. 

Meanwhile stirring up a frenzy everywhere she went!

Op-lah!

Was it her fault that people were being sparked into 

Jealousy? 

All because she was happy and enjoying everything she was, 

it made other people want to destroy her light. 

Just like the other day when she was on the bus and 

the driver ended up having a fender bender. 

She was happy and just enjoying her time 

when a guy came on the bus and began to annoy her. 

He was drawn to her light but wanted so bad to 

syphon it... 

Could it be that the driver saw it happening 

in his mirror and that's why he accidentally hit the car 

in front of him?

She wanted the fantasy. 

Even though it was probably no where near the truth.

She adored the driver. 

He had something about him that made her attracted to him.

However, 

she also knew that this was backwards. 

Being the feminine energy, 

she was supposed to be the one who attracted him. 

So the fantasy for her was that he hit the car, 

because he got jealous that another man was trying to 

mess with his dish. 

The next day, after the crash, 

she wanted to go again to her far away city, 

and wondered if her driver was fired for the accident. 

As she awaited her bus, 

to her surprise, 

he showed up again! 

A huge sincere smile appeared on her face! 

She asked him if everything had worked out Okay?

And he responded to her with an equal smile

 and spoke to her for the first time ever. 

She was in limerence heaven!

Why limerence? 

Limerence is a state of mind characterized by intense infatuation and obsessive thoughts about another person, often accompanied by a desire for reciprocation and a fear of rejection. It's a form of romantic or non-romantic infatuation that differs from love or lust, as it's fueled by uncertainty about the other person's feelings and a longing for reciprocation. 

If she knew nothing about the boy,

But yet preferred to keep it that way all because of

Fear. 

Fear of rejection. 

Fear of having to choose. 

Fear of being wrong, 

and especially 

the Fear of being trapped in a soul tie again...

Then perhaps Limerence was the safest place to linger?

Or was it?

The truth was that 

Judgment was what clouded the state of limerence,

but was she really judging the boy?

 Perhaps. 

But also, 

Perhaps she was just being herself. 

A woman. 

A women that never bent over backwards

 to make the first move.

However, 

she also knew not to stay in limerence land too long, 

because it caused her to miss out on all the 

real opportunities that actually did exist.

He was only an option on days 

when she needed him...

To Drive her... 

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