Knock Knock

The Full Moon in Aquarius was sneaking right

up behind her and she only knew because 

he sent her a reminder on her google calendar.

Such was Aquarius, 

the prophetic rebellion that he was. 

She felt really uneasy and actually quite restless 

all because her entire being was getting 

a massive upgrade. 

She never really minded a few tweeks here and there, 

but Damn

 this time, 

it felt as though the entire universe was done with 

all of her. 

Time to scratch it all out... 

Rip it to shreds...

and 

just wipe out the entire Mother Board!

That was her Aquarius energy... 

Faulty a$$ technology that kept on repeating 

all that never went anywhere except in a loop!

It was time to clean it up.

She wasn't even a computer though. 

So all this Aquarius energy just really wore her out!

She was a detached version of life overall. 

She never belonged. 

She didn't want to. 

But then she did it anyways just to rebel. 

Rebel herself. 

So she began to follow the crowd. 

Little did she know,

the crowd split. 

Then split again and again and again.. 

She didn't know where she was anymore. 

Let alone who she was. 

But this was all getting so old, just as she was. 

Grandma couldn't care less anymore. 

She was so done with the mess she created. 

So tomorrow when the Aquarius Full Moon arrived 

and then decided to 

'control' 'alt' and 'delete'

 her... 

She would surrender. 

There was really nothing more she could do, 

let alone wanted to do. 

She had experienced enough of 

the same type of broken bonds 

she had grown up from. 

She had learned the opposite of it. 

Yet, to apply it, 

she couldn't,

 because she didn't have the discipline to carry it out. 

She didn't even have the will power to back it up even if she did. 

She was just completely over all of it. 

She really didn't care about being in love anymore. 

Not with herself. 

and definitely not with another. 

When all was said and done. 

So was she. 

Okay, she had to admit... 

She never could give up on loving herself... 

And she definitely couldn't see herself giving up on the 

new found love she was experiencing with Holy Spirit. 

So, she decided to think twice about what the 

Aquarius Full Moon

was trying to bring to her. 

Perhaps there was some kind of change that wanted to 

enter her life. 

And she just needed to be open to receive it. 

Something inside her made her hesitate though... 

If she was trying to receive something, 

did that mean she was going from a place of lack?

Holy Spirit immediately chimed in and told her, 

"What you receive was never outside of you, 

it was always in you, 

you are just now finally ready to let go of all that never worked 

and make space to open and receive what was  

in you all along."

And with that, she totally knew and understood exactly 

what he was saying and exactly what was to come soon!