Real Lies

Rage exploded out of thin air and landed 

in the very lap of the  provoker. 

She was shocked at how it just oozed right 

out of her without notice. 

Or perhaps,

 there was always a notice, 

she just never cared to acknowledge it. 

However,

 with the Aries Full moon in full bloom that night,

 her Aries Rising energy was 

not having any more of her overlooking the important things. 

The minute he tried to touch her thigh and 

slide his hand all the way up, 

she took her hand and slapped him with a mighty force! 

"I'm not a Whor3 she yelled!

Don't you ever treat me as such!"

She surprised herself with how quickly and how 

loudly those words erupted from her mouth!

He jumped back,

 looking at her all shocked!

Then he dared to beg her for just one touch. 

She was utterly disgusted. 

She almost got up and walked away, however, 

he pleaded for her to please stay. 

 She sat back down and told him, 

straight up, "you don't even know me".

"I have been the one to ask all the questions, 

and not once do you ever ask me anything about 

who I am."

He grabbed the phone...

and typed in the translator his first ever question to her...

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They communicated through the translator 

because he was Spanish and didn't speak English 

very well. 

She now knew quite well that this very tiny little detail

actually put a huge strain on the relationship

from ever getting off the ground. 

But she wasn't going to lie...

The true weight that held them down from ever taking off

was because she didn't like who he was, let alone 

his direction in life. 

They had nothing in common. 

That was for sure. 

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When she looked at the phone which he had handed 

back to her with his first ever question for her. 

Her heart STOPPED. 

Then exploded. 

First inside her, 

then outside. 

However, when it came out of her, it came out

as a mischievous laugh. 

She thought for a second and responded ever so casually

to his clearly insecurity ridden question.

The Question;

"How many men have you slept with?"

Her response;

"None."

He looked at her all puzzled.

Then began to type his next question. 

"You have a baby, you had to have at least one?"

She typed back with a huge joker smile across her face; 

"I slept with No MEN, only Boys."

He laughed a defeated laugh and typed back, 

"So I will be the first one?"

Once again she laughed her evil laugh and responded

with; 

"If you ever make it there." 

Yet in her mind, she already knew he was Never going to see 

that light of day. 

Not with her.

He began trying to ask her for marriage. 

And she began asking him, what fear was pushing 

him so hard all of a sudden. 

He didn't understand. 

She tried to explain emotional processing to him, 

but lost him at how do you feel?

Clearly he was too far away. 

And that's why this morning when he tried to text her,

she pulled out the big guns 

and told him, 

she was finished trying to fly this plane 

off the ground. 

He tried to throw guilt on her, but she blocked him 

completely. 

No more going back. 

It was going to be on her to get beer from now on. 

No more Free Beer Daddy to torture the hell out of her

all for a few beers. 

And that is exactly what the Full Moon in Aries 

Helped her to finally do. 

To Love herself more than an External Lie.